Jooooy!

2012-01-22T03:11:00.002+08:00

I am blessed by God and i am thankful for everything you've given me.

Looked through the pictures in Facebook, saw all the lovely faces and i felt really glad to have every single one of them in my life. It's just so magical how strangers can become so close and have such great impact in my life! In every phase of my life i met awesome people, no words can express how much i love them and how thankful i am to haven known them :)

A joy who came in and never left, a joy that will never tell me how much she loves me and how impt i am to her unless when she feels that there is a need to? Haha idk, all i know is that you are always deep in my heart even though we don't talk as much as we used to :)

A friend that will never lose faith in me, always believe that i can do anything and everything! A friend that i can share my dreams/goals with and never gets tired of it. A friend that i believe will succeed in life. KY, you can do it! Thank you for always being such a awesome friend, i miss laughing my ass off with you!!

A "sister" who is forever so childish but yet forever so lovable! A "sister" who always tell me he loves me and he misses me! Finally you are reading self help books ah sister! Told ya it will help, just look at how it helped KY & I!! Live your dreams, dream it BIG and enjoy the process k!! You-know-who-you-are. :)

Been together with my uni friends for like 4 months? Won't say that we been through a lot but we definitely am like a family since we live together! The thought that we will not see each other for like ONLY 5 DAYS made us.......................... (i don't know how to say, just doesn't feel right?) Haha. ITS JUST MERE 5 DAYS OH MY GOSH HAHAHA !! Told ya friendship is so magical and maybe lame? Doing shit things together with that 2 idiots is such a joy and they are such a dear :) I won't say i love you, don't ever hope that i'll say these 3 words to you! I know you girls don't wanna hear from me too! OH LIKE WE CARE HAHAHA!

Oh and how can i forget THE ANNOYING? The girl who don't act like the way she look, deceive everyone in the world that she's so attas and ups but actually so nice and sweet! Heart that made up of gold, definitely a gem but a gem that needs a lot of effort/time and patience to discover? HAHA You are awesome so STOP DOUBTING YOURSELF! I know I am such a pain in your ass and you are such a pain in mine too. YA F OUR LIFE, why supper even existed?! If not, i wouldn't have met you! But i think we kept each other going when our days are tough and i appreciate you even though you are the most annoying person i ever met :)

Till then!!

2012-01-03T02:27:00.002+08:00

2012's gonna be SO AWESOME!

Felt really excited whenever i come across stuff that allows me to look into my future and dream about how wonderful it will be. Y'know its extremely magical and it never fails to make me smile!

Thinking of tomorrow makes life a chore so it is always better to focus on how great the outcome would be and everything comes easier.

Obstacles are not here to stop us but here to teach us lessons. What are mistakes? What is failure? Hah see these as God's gift to you. He has his reasons!

To make you a stronger person.

You can do it!

2011-12-04T02:34:00.002+08:00

All the crazy thoughts running through my head now.

All i need now is to have a stand i guess? If i have a stand, whatever i do will be right to me. & as long it feels right to me den it is? :)

You know all these have been bugging me for years and it's so boring i hate it. Life's greatest challenge is way much more than this please! I can't seem to get anything right, struggling with everything in this world now grrrrr!

I cannot give up hope else i can never reach my ultimate goal in life, I CANNOT GIVE UP BECAUSE I CANNOT COPE WITH SHITS LIKE THIS I CANNOT AND I WON'T!

It's only when i start to link what i'm doing now with what i wanna do in future that motivates me to not give up. Life's is way too short to live in regrets and even shorter to live in agony/angst/sadness..... Being too emotional won't bring me anywhere far, i must get this in my head!!

Anyway i think i'm gonna close this space of mine very soon, thought of using tumblr but don't know how to use lehhhh.... Shall try when i'm free weee!

Life goes on cos the earth's moving and nothing will remain where they are.

ACCEPT IT, ACCEPTING IT, ACCEPTED IT.

Bye :)

2011-12-02T22:57:00.003+08:00

D E C E M B E R R R R R R IS HERE !!!!!!!!!!

Long awaited 2nd December's finallyyyyyy here BUT i screwed my exams badly am so worried, imagine a GPA of 2? OMG FML!

BUTTTT whatever it is, IT'S OVERRRRR :) !!! So gonna enjoy myself and get back into another 4 months battle next month! STILL think that i can do it! HEH ^^

Hahaha i literally kissed goodbye to my exchange already ~ Disadvantage being a direct year 2 student, you need to well for your first semester in Uni if not you can't go for exchange. Others has 3 sems to work on :/

5.5 semesters more (Sharon Lok told me this LOL) Aiya that girl is such a dear la, sometimes i just feel like hugging her tight tight and kiss her like how the "You are the apple of my eye" guy did to the groom =P JUST SAYING ~ I KNOW YOU ARE STALKING ME MISS LOK :) HELLO TAKE CARE LOVE YOU BYE :) (This is so much better than "kkthxbye" right? But actually the intention's the same LOL)

Cannot wait to HTHT with people now omgomgomgomg finally can OFFICALLYYYYYYYYY HTHT till morning. SO EXCITING <33333

Car wash tomorrow at ECP, I'll make sure Shermaine wash off all my bird shits :)

OMG THIS FEELING IS SO AWESOME.......... I AM PRACTICALLY DOING NOTHING HA HA HA HA MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Okay i better stop before i go crazy

Goodbye ^^

ALMOST KILLED ME

MY 4 MONTHS OF HELL!

PEOPLE THAT KEPT ME GOING! HAHAHA <3

2011-11-13T02:44:00.002+08:00

How happy you really are? Define happiness to me? So you laugh because you're happy or you laugh because you think you're happy?

I don't see a point living such a meaningless life because i no longer see purpose in my life. Okay, i sound like as if im gonna kill myself anytime BUT NO. So don't worry cos' im not a fool:)

Looking forward to December so that i can finally have some quiet time alone to reflect on the past 3 months in Uni. I wasn't able to even have a min of peaceful time to think!! This is so stupid! I think i need a whole one week after exam to really THINK because i find whatever im doing now and whatever that are happening now around me sillyyyyy! Like we don't even have time to talk den how can anyone in hall/school be close?! Thinking of this makes me miss KY! The times that we shared and the things that we talked about is what i want with everyone around me now in hall/school!!! Even thou people in NTU are nice but i find it superficial. I don't feel the bond even thou we see each other every day OR maybe they are just not the people i wanna spend time with.

Where's the ultimate purpose in life now?

Still searching i guess.

Nights:)

2011-11-04T17:21:00.002+08:00

You guys won't know how much these people mean to me! It's more den a world to me cos' they rockssssssss! Haha we play/eat/shit/study/gocrazy/cry together!

Days may be really tough in NTU but there are still joyous people here to make life easier. I appreciate and love everyone here :)

I can see that its no longer only Disney love, it's hall one love :)

2 weeks to exam! Gonna give everything i have to at least score a 4.0 GPA. I NEED TO GO XCHANGE!!!!

Okay byezzzzzzz

crazzyyyyyyyyneeessssss

2011-10-15T03:34:00.001+08:00

Current life is pack with reading notes, understanding them and attempting the tutorials! Life as a university student in sg kinda sucky! They don't give student a chance to even breathe!!!!! About 1.5 more months to December sem break, I can't wait and nobody can man! :( haha don't really know how to face the days/weeks/months/years ahead!! Really, life kinda screwed when you want to perfect everything in your life! I wanna have good gpa, have good relations with my mates in hall/school and sleep well! Haha I think what I'm doing now is like sacrificing my time spending with my family and joy! Haha I know I'm missing out a lot but I can't do much. It's like you tend to sacrifice what's most impt to you for something new and interesting. Haha idk why too, it's an irony but that's just what is happening to me now.

Nah i am not complaining about the sucky life I'm facing now, I'm just sharing my thoughts and experiences with people who do happen to read this. Uni life suck but hall life rocks my socks/underwear whateverrrrrr! Another ironic thing is... Hall life will cause you to like not do well for your exams but also will motivate you to work harder and not give up! Do you know that i actually don't regret coming into ntu? I know friend can be found everywhere but I believe it's fate that brings friends together (: Ntu hall one is a place everyone should come try living in! You will never regret!!!!!

I love hall one, I love Disney, I love my fellow cgls and I love Shermaine tooooooo! You guys are so awesome :)!

Post Created Oct 2, 2011 2:48:31 AM

2011-10-02T02:48:00.001+08:00

Recess week ends tomorrow or today to be exact. Was it a well spent one? I totally hope so! I spent time with the most important people in my life and studied what I CAN! Also, completed my lab report. & so... I think it was well spent! Yays, smileys :)!

Gonna live my university life with ONE purpose in mind and that is to be TRULY HAPPY! That means, no complains about late nights/ early mornings/ too much work/ mega lagging behind and whatever that links to being grumpy! Definitely can do it!! WUUUSHHHH!!!

Throwing procrastination out of my dictionary! Oh my goshhhhhh, don't know why I'm so motivated suddenly!! I LOVE this feeling!! I missed the old Jolynn so much, the one who aims so high and wasn't afraid to fall at all. Gonna be back onto the right track from tomorrow onwards.

I foresee good days ahead now :)!

FIGHTINGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!

2011-09-19T02:59:00.003+08:00

"Successful people aren't born that way. They become successful by establishing the habit of doing things unsuccessful people don't like to do. The successful people don't always like these things themselves; they just get on and do them."

It's tough but it's not impossible. If others can do it, i can do it better.

Haha i miss those days when God gave me so much time to reflect on my mistakes, think about what i want in future and plan on the steps i wanna take to reach my goal. I miss those days when i can spend almost 24 hours a day just on reading and being inspired and motivated.

Guess i can never experience such wonderful carefree life anymore..

Gonna organize and plan my time properly for the weeks ahead!

I Am Still Fighting, this time with a stronger will and mind. (:

Till then!

2011-09-11T17:20:00.002+08:00

What are words

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

This is an awesome piece. (Y) Gonna make Claudia Ong play this song for me! :D :D :D

Test week! ALLLLLL DAAAAA BESTTTTTTTT! :)

2011-08-27T02:09:00.002+08:00

Don't hope for things to be better, do something about it and make yourself a better/stronger person!

Life have been really challenging for me and i know there are many more waiting for me to welcome them. I think life is about challenges and also about the people you are surrounded with. I remember Aimee Mullins mentioned that "Adversities are nothing but changes we haven't got used to." We need inspiring people around us to keep us going, we need unfortunate people who DON'T feel that they are actually unfortunate to teach us values about life. I truly salute to them! Felt really disappointed in myself for not being able to put positive thoughts into my brain when i'm feeling low! Got to make sure that such thing won't happen again! I got to find time to read Oprah Winfrey's biography soon!

I DO wish that i could be given 72 hours a day so that i have enough time to play, mug, read and talk to my parent! We know wishes don't come true just only by wishing? Haha a wish is like a goal for you to reach :)

Haha actually i should really give myself a pat on my back because i think i did pretty well for the first week being a CGL! Will continue to strive hard for both academic and hall stuff! I am actually really proud being the CGL of Disney, it's a great honor being able to lead this bunch of SUPER ULTRA LOVELY PEOPLE!

Haha.. Why disney so sweet? Oh ~ i also don't know! x3

Alright got to sleep else Geri will nag nag nag like some auntie!

Good nightttttttttt!

2011-08-17T14:24:00.002+08:00

Been through just barely 3 weeks in uni, realize pretty much about certain things. It allows me to see myself in different situations. Things that once mattered so much to me will bland off as time passes by. Haha it scares me but that's life i would say?

Sometimes, i find myself really mysterious HAHA

All in all, i'm still a very introvert person (; !

Uni life is EXTREMELY interesting! No one should ever skip this part of their life (:

Till then i post again!

Post Created Aug 7, 2011 2:07:57 AM

2011-08-07T02:07:00.001+08:00

Hello!

I'm back from camp and I enjoyed myself there so much!! I foresee more enjoyment in years to come! :) Gonna join a couple of CCA, I hope I'm given the time for it. Was being told that engine students are more stressful compared to business students, we shall see!

Read my previous post and I feel glad to let you know that I have already gotten use of my room and my roomy! :) Am gonna stay for 3 years if I'm allowed to!

Things are all about to change to the better with so many inspiring people around me in Hall 1. I love hall 1/Disney so much now that aircon no longer the priority to me!

So happy to be in NTU now!

Goodnight!

Post Created Jul 31, 2011 12:45:49 AM

2011-07-31T00:45:00.001+08:00

If I can live in that room for 3 months, I deserve to strike TOTO top prize. Like super serious!

All the best Jolynn, you can finally step out of your comfort zone and feel uncomfortable for I don't know how long. Worst decision ever made. I AM SO SCREWED!!!!!!!

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Bye

2011-07-30T01:06:00.003+08:00

No one said life's gonna be easy, needless to say when you have dreams that are so huge.

It'd be so nice if i own the two beautiful buildings above and the limo behind where i'm standing(yup if you can't see, it is a limo!).

It will eventually BE MINE anyway. Hah! But before having that, I've got several millions of mountain to conquer and rivers to cross. We shall all see how determined i am to reach my dreams, sometimes, i doubted myself too! It is both mentally and physically exhausting to have dreams. Nevertheless, I know that this journey i chose to take would be the most wonderful and rewarding thing i ever done in life!

I will never give up on my dream! Moreover, i'm already on my track to success! :)

It lightens me up, i'm glad to be on track.

Better turn in and spend more time with my bed before its too late! haha

Goodnight! :)

2011-07-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

HE IS SUPER ADORABLE!!

(KY will definitely agree with me!!)

Couldn't help but to share even though i am feeling really sleepy now!

Goodnight!

2011-07-26T16:12:00.002+08:00

I'm back from my 2 weeks getaway and i am back with a mind ready for all the challenges ahead of me. I had a great time with my bro and mom, a really unique experience that i am sure all of us won't forget. We go around loving the food, scenery, people, hotel rooms and even structures! As long as a phenomenon structure was designed and built, everyone will love it even though they know nuts about structures.

Every where i go, i treat it as a learning process. I really feel that getting to know people is a gift to yourself. It is people who made things possible, to make you feel loved and cared, to make you feel that adversity is nothing but a change we have not adapted to and that you are never alone.

Treasure everyone around you, because they are the greatest gift from above.

2011-07-09T17:32:00.003+08:00

Who would want to let a person who made such a big impact in our life go?

I did my best and i fear not to lose anymore. (:

Had a superb catch up with KY, Sebas & JX last night! We practically chatted for 6 hours non-stop! Was indeed a WOAH. Meeting wonderful people like them always gives me a wake up call to a more productive life.

True friends will tell you when you are wrong and praise you when you did something awesome!

Everyone knows that action SPEAKS louder than words, but only a handful of us knows how to apply it.

Combine knowledge with massive actions and you will be unstoppable in life!

Lets all succeed TOGETHER! :)

Always, FIGHTING!!!!!!!

Post Created Jul 7, 2011 4:06:06 AM

2011-07-07T04:06:00.001+08:00

Hello world!

I didn't lose interest in blogging, it's just that I got nothing much to share recently. Life has been really nice to me, enjoying my one month holiday before embarking into my new phase in life, which is none other than my uni life! Pretty excited for school to start, got a lot of expectations for myself and I am all ready to reach them!

Such a pity that I won't be able to participate in any orientation camps because I will be out of town. Hmm will definitely have a chance to experience that, I really got to get out of my comfort zone! That's my mission! Whatever it is, I am going to experience whatever I can in these upcoming 3 years. Won't have much time for my family cos' I'll be a 'west sider' from 1st August onwards. I will be living in a 'condominium' very soon with all the great facilities! For that, I'm lovin' it! Haha!

Currently, I'm investing my time reading books, playing games with my siblings, talk to my parent and enjoying my holiday to the fullest!

Not forgetting to mention that this month is the 'I am so broke' month! I am so broke till I can cry! It is THAT bad! But obviously I'm broke not because my bank is empty but I FEEL that I spent way too much last month that I got to STOP spending! I spent too much on books, entertainment and making my love ones feel loved by me. I'm someone who likes to be fair. If I buy something for one person, I'll make sure everyone have a share. (oh.. What a flaw!) I am actually a REALLY stingy person, I swear!

By the way, I do have a quote to share.

"When we give ourselves no option but to succeed, we will always achieve what we want!" - Adam Khoo

I'm currently in the Adam Khoo craze. His book is truly AMAZING! You got to try reading to believe it! REALLY JUST GO TO POPULAR NOW AND SPEND $30 ON THAT BOOK(Master your mind, design your destiny)! The knowledge you gain worth x100000 times more than that amount. :)

Okay, time to sleep!

Till then,
Goodnight lovely people!!!!

2011-06-17T19:52:00.002+08:00

For every person who climbs the ladder of success, there are a dozen waiting for the elevator.

LOVE THIS PHRASE!

So... All my worries and months of preparation and planning for my overseas studies went to a waste. Got my acceptance letter from NTU just 2 days back and it was indeed a surprise for me and people around me. Tens of people called/text/fb/twitter/whatsapp me to congratulate me. I thank you guys for that :)

But, what surprises me more was that i didn't feel the slightest joy receiving that letter. Hah. Weird huh? Oh well, its not weird la its just that others didn't go through what i went through these pass few months. Ya i do blame the universities for causing it. I wrote a post a few weeks back with all the vulgarities, ya if you guys remember that, it was my harshest post ever. Their action just irks me. Whatever it is now, i got to stop hating that school because that is MY school now. Hmmm... Still doesn't like it Hah...

Nevertheless, I AM GONNA ENJOY MY UNI DAYS! (I do hope i can!)

Everything happens for a reason, for that i believe and you guys should too!

Oh btw, i saw the danger of setting up a firm. Haha this 3 months at work may be really bored but i learn so much! Haha imagine my dad have been doing this for 30 years? & now, that i will call it, AWESOME! :) I love my dad! & mom & bro & sis.... Haha

Till then! :)

2011-06-14T19:34:00.002+08:00

People whom you care have feelings/ego/pride, those whom you don't, doesn't? You hope for recognition, others don't? You will cry or get upset, others don't? You feel that it's okay doing what you like, others don't?

What is this world when everything is all about themselves? Have all of you forgotten how to give?

Instead of looking at only your happiness and pains, look at others too. If you have feelings, so do they.

Who doesn't like to be the "say"? Who likes to "do"? Aren't we humans as well? Won't we feel tired/frustrated too? Sometimes if you would like to be the "say", make sure you know or at least understand everything before you do all the sayings. The world don't only revolve around you.

I am sick and tired putting a smile to face all these selfish people. You just don't know how tiring it is until you encounter. It just drains all your strengths away.

Ya, am ranting here. No point ranting to people who doesn't want to listen. Don't come to me and say you can be my listening ear when you can't commit. It just spoils all the trust and faith.

Time for dinner.

Till then.

2011-06-10T22:44:00.002+08:00

Do you have a best friend with you, so that when you are down they will be there to lift you up? :)

Many find them stupid and dumb, but i thought otherwise. They are perfect in each other's eyes and thats the most important thing about best friends.

When you're being silly, that is when you are YOURSELF and being happy?

So think, with whom you will be yourself? Den, you've found your best friend.

Goodnight :)

2011-06-05T18:14:00.004+08:00

Gratitude.

Value people, because they are the ones that did the most job to shape you into the person you are meant to be. Everyone has their unique role in making you a better person. Some are here to support you, some are here to work with you, some are here to love and care for you, some are here to test your patience and stuff.. But i believe all are here to teach you valuable lessons.

I don't want to prosper alone, i wanna prosper with everyone of you.

If you appreciate someone, tell them.

Just imagine someone who meant so much to you came over to you one day and say "Hey, thank you for always being there. I love you & they give you a hug."

Y'know, simple words and actions like that can make huge impact.

People are in your life for a reason. Love them for who they are and they will do the same.

You don't need to have promises when you have love.

You don't have to be perfect for people to love you, if they love you, they'd love your imperfections too. It comes in a package, you + your imperfections.

Till then i write again.

2011-06-05T02:01:00.000+08:00

Please have more patient, else you're gonna regret big time again.

2011-06-03T22:44:00.003+08:00

Singapore has FUCKED UP education systems.

How can we fucking appeal for a place with just 50 words? That is fucking 3 sentence! Young singaporeans here are so fucking serious about getting a place in THEIR OWN COUNTRY'S UNIVERSITIES and you are at the other side of the wall treating us like some FOOLS.

SERIOUSLY YOU GUYS ARE MOTHERFUCKING RETARDS!!

I am totally fine with not getting a place, i am not angry because i was rejected. Get this straight.

Everyone is wondering HOW THE FUCK you this so called "admission group" of people decides who gets a place.

Please DON'T give me a place in your schools anymore. Throw my fucking appeal letters away. YOU JUST RUIN YOUR OWN COUNTRY WITH YOUR FUCKING FUCKED UP ATTITUDE!

I am one very unhappy young singaporean here. Can't wait to get my ass out of here.

BYE

Post Created Jun 1, 2011 10:30:45 PM

2011-06-01T22:30:00.001+08:00

If i don't deserve another chance, walk away from me.

2011-06-01T01:04:00.000+08:00

If they can do it, you can do it better. :)

2011-05-29T01:07:00.003+08:00

I am gonna laugh harder 3 years later!! Haha i love this picture KY took! :)

Just ended my talk with my parent. Got so touched by them i teared. Maybe i felt really guilty towards them. I won't say that i should have done my best cos' i DID my best. I have no regrets and i won't blame myself for only realizing my passion only last year. I am glad to realize it.

I got my crying genes from my mom! Haha i am so gonna cry so hard at the airport in January man~~~~

I know what is ahead of my now, i am all fueled up for it! I don't mind enrolling this July, have to see what my parent preferences are. If they give me a green light, i will definitely go :)

We totally dropped the hope of local universities already. Brother told me to seek MP's help, over my dead body :) I know where i stand, i know why i got rejected and i am totally fine with it! I should thank them because they cleared my eyes and let me have a much clearer view of what my parent are to me.

We only have 7 more months.. I hope we treasure every single second. You know i love you, you just didn't know how much.

Goodnight!!!

2011-05-27T22:27:00.004+08:00

When you're left with nothing, you got nothing to lose.

Explaining works to people who likes to explain but fails with people who hates explaining? To me i feel that everyone loved to hear explaining from the one they love. Expressing yourself can be so difficult and tiring at times but we just got to try it. If you love and care for that person, tell them straight. Don't ever wait till you have got no chance left and leave with regret. And of course, do it if you mean it and the rest would be taken cared of.

I try seeking improvement every single day no matter how tiring my life is. I live with it with a very open mind and heart. I know i cannot please everyone around me and i shouldn't try hard to please them because this is not real. I want people to like me for who i am and not what i am.

I am making my toughest decision in life now, going though the toughest situations with my family. I am glad we are trying to solve everything as a family.

Good things are worth fighting for & when you already did YOUR BEST there is nothing to be unhappy about. Everything happens for a reason, you just got to search for that reason yourself.

Whichever path i am taking, i'll do my best. I will top the mountain if you give me the opportunity to.

So, i graduated from SP last evening. Saw all of 03 graduating is a bliss. We spent 3 years together, saw how each other grew and being able to laugh at every situation is the most memorable thing i have with 03. My life would't be so lively without all of you. I thank everyone of you and i wish you guys all the best in your future endeavors. It's not gonna be easy but i know we all can succeed!

With billions of love and thanks, I will end here.

Keep fighting!

Goodbye!

Post Created May 26, 2011 12:05:30 AM

2011-05-26T00:05:00.001+08:00

Everything happens for a reason. I know I can get through this. If really I have to leave, I don't think I'll be coming back. Leaving sg is no big deal but leaving my family and joy is one huge thing.

I am shit confused. & it's graduation tomorrow.

Goodnight I am so reluctant to stay awake even for another second. However I doubt I can sleep too.

2011-05-23T22:40:00.002+08:00

I believe god put me with you for a reason.

Post Created May 23, 2011 2:22:07 AM

2011-05-23T02:22:00.001+08:00

My mind can't be in peace now. I've got hundreds of things to consider, to plan and to decide. Either way, one side will lose. Wonder if I could come up with some really brilliant ideas to make both side WORK. Stick to my stand or not? Now, I am scared.

At first I was so fine but now im not. People got so engross with what the wanna do that they forgotten about why they wanted it so much in the first place!!

I shall not sigh :) I just wish july will come quick. Like I always say, let's just hope for the best and let god lead me.

Yeah.. No one said life would be easy.

Fighting !!!!!! :)

Post Created May 20, 2011 12:32:24 AM

2011-05-20T00:32:00.001+08:00

I got something to admit.

I am under hell lot of pressure now. Pressure from work, for my future. Haha today went pass rather crazily. Never encounter anything like this in my whole entire life. It's like.. You are lack of capability to reach a certain standard. Couldn't remember how I calm myself down just now with all that pressure pilling up every second! All I knew was me kept repeating "you can do it Jolynn, you can do it!!!!!" Thought of giving up but am glad that I chose to preserve on. Tomorrow would be another brain cracking day and maybe Saturday.

On the other hand, pressure is good if you know how to handle it properly. (:

Haha but I am happy to see people whom are so dear to me, planning for their future or some already planned! Great job done there! Planning is the first step to succeeding! :)

My biggest question to myself now is "What would be the best for me now? Uni in sg or in Australia?" Yes this is still my major concern now. Hardest time of my life? Not only for me but my parent too! Such mistake won't happen twice I promise! 2 more weeks and I will know where I stand or at least know the results for local uni. Trust me, it's either you score a gpa of 3.9 or a gpa of 3.4. Like that you would have a confirmation straight without even thinking! I experienced this before and it SUCKS :)

This is when you need supportive Family to back you up and friends that will listen to your what your heart wanna tell and chase away all your fears. :)

Oh ya, hello joy I am happy to see you today. (: I hope we meet often, y'know more often than often? Hah.

Goodnight!

Post Created May 14, 2011 1:54:03 AM

2011-05-14T01:54:00.001+08:00

Hello everybody, today I'm blogging w a clear mind. Haha my life won't stay consistent no matter how hard I tried. So now I stop trying and just hope for the best in everything that god wish to bring to my life.

I watched a video of Oprah Winfrey giving a speech to the Stanford graduates in 2008. She is a true inspiration! America should be glad to have her because I am sure she helped so many people. Singapore really need someone like her! Or maybe there is but I am not aware of? Mind telling me their names? :)

Quoted from her speech:

1) When you're doing the work you're meant to do, it feels right and everyday is a bonus regardless of what you're getting paid.

2) If you don't know what to do, get still until you do know what to do.

3) "What is it here to teach me?" She said, always ask yourself this question whenever you're facing problems/difficulties/crisis. I always believe that all difficulties we face are challenges given by god. You can blame, whine all you want at it but eventually you'll still have to solve it.

4) We need to focus on the NOW. Oh I read a very interesting newsletter a few days back. It says " Why are we so focused on succeeding in future? Why can't we succeed NOW?" Haha this sentence woke up me cos it applied to me. I never thought of succeeding now! Succeeding in future is a dream, succeeding now is reality!

5) If you're hurting, you need to help someone else ease the hurt. If you're in pain, help someone else's pain. When you're in a mess, get yourself out of the mess helping somebody out of theirs. People usually succeed when they help people get what they want and not what we want.

When I read, I learn and when I learn I wanna share so that everyone else around me learn as well. It's fine if they doesn't agree with my stand because we don't share the same mind. Understanding, willing to listen and accept plays a very big part in maintaining relationships w people around you. I don't have many friends but I've got top quality friends whom I can exchange ideas with, a joy so hard to say goodbye to. I have a sister who is always so ready to have cat fights with me, a brother who loves me, a mom who loves to oppose me with her own thinkings but end up still respecting mine and a dad who will always give me confidence and full support. All these clearly shows that I am very fortunate and even if I failed in the things I did in life, I'll still have them to back me up. NOW, this is a success in life.

People who doesn't agree with me I am okay with you not reading my blog.

I remember Sebas telling me this "your life is so boring! Because what you have in mind is only buildings, buildings and more buildings!" I seriously got no clue why he said that.. My life is clearly not only about buildings? Its far more den just that my dear. Stop only looking things on the facade, look deep down and you will discover more. :)

Graduation on the 26th, can't wait!

It's late and I should stop here. I didn't expect that I'd type so much! Haha and I stopped blogging using my laptop unless I have pictures to share. Okay random :)

Goodnight!

2011-05-06T17:16:00.004+08:00

Edited.

There's nothing to prove because to you i am nothing but a fake.

Pain, very very pain.

2011-05-02T01:01:00.002+08:00

Got an unexpected reply, am glad and thankful even up till now. (:

Got to continue typing the idk what is it called to enquire if i could get an advance standing if i apply for university of Sydney. I have to type descriptions for ALL the modules i've taken in the whole of my poly life. I spent 30mins just now only managed to finish 2 modules. Anyway, i am thankful for people who have helped me especially Tomy! :) You know, every advice and encouragement from you guys now means so so much to me! This is definitely something i cannot do alone. Forever thankful to you guys :)

My aunt somewhat inspired me, she's doing something i wished i could do! Haha now i have another purpose in life :)!

Today turned out unexpectedly great! I finally can sleep with a smile in my heart. (:

Goodnight!

Post Created May 1, 2011 2:15:29 AM

2011-05-01T02:15:00.001+08:00

Maybe I don't deserve having a best friend. Or maybe having a best friend is stupid and childish. But I don't think anyone could live a life w/o a close friend.

I am gonna be a living human without a soul the next few days or maybe weeks/months? I don't have anymore strength to bring myself out of this.

All this made me tired of living. I don't mind if the world ends tomorrow.

" Friendship is not about finding similarities, it is about respecting differences. You are not my friend coz you are like me, but because i accept you and respect you the way you are."

2011-04-27T23:39:00.002+08:00

Happiness can be as simple as just looking at this simple picture and all those memories will flash. We used to be so happy doing all sorts of things that make no sense at all. Are we even feeling the slightest bit of happiness now my dear?

I don't even know if it would make it pass the 5.year.mark. & that is half a decade!

You ever said that having me was your lot. Haha i think it was your loss, my lot.

("v")

2011-04-22T00:00:00.002+08:00

There are still certain things i wish i could stay positive with. Haha the more you wish things to be that way, the more it won't.

Nothing is in place now, no letter spells huge headache for me. With hundred and one things to consider and come out with a plan that pleases everyone. Now life is tiring.. Or maybe i find it unbearable only when that person i wish would be there are busy doing her own stuff?

Yah, stop being a baby Miss Ho. Hahaha it irritates me to see myself like this!

I've a question.

Is it good to be able to be there for yourself, telling yourself that it's okay, ask yourself what happened and try solving everything yourself? OR Is it way to pathetic cos' you've got no one else except yourself to pull yourself out of your own lousy emotions?

50:50 huh? :)

Everything has 2 answers because god gave us a choice to choose. There is no right or wrong answer. The only thing that will be wrong is when you chose and yet you regret.

I have way too much stuff in my mind now, sleeping would definitely help ease some negativity. (:

Goodnight !!

2011-04-21T13:15:00.002+08:00

I got this from jeraldine's blog & this is exactly what you people should tell yourself.

It's kinda blur though, but it's definitely worth spending your time reading and reflect!

2011-04-19T13:29:00.003+08:00

Why is this lady here so gorgeous? I can't help but to post a picture of her here.

Heart shape times 100000000000000000!

BYE :)

*EDITED*

& Dad got me star awards ticket! I still can't believe that i am gonna see this gorgeous lady on Sunday! It's definitely a dream come through! :) I AM VERY VERY HAPPY! YIPPPPPPPPIIEEEEEEEEEEE!

Post Created Apr 18, 2011 12:26:19 AM

2011-04-18T00:26:00.001+08:00

Hi guys! I'm blogging now with a "oh it's Monday tomorrow again" attitude. Haha but I'm glad that I am not dragging my feet to work every morning :) This may be because my dad makes me feel impt during work? The last time I came I hated the job haha but now I'm okay with it :)

Started work for 2 weeks and it made me realize that dream is dream, reality is reality. They are just way too far apart! So my advice to people out there whom already have a dream to start working at their relevant places and start taking responsibilities.

Haha I do admit that I'm lucky to have my dad who does the exact same thing as what I'm doing. But you guys may not know a thing. I'm the one who altered my thinking to devote my time and passion to civil. This is what I chose, I am not gonna regret and I believe I will succeed.

The one thing I didn't regret doing was the start reading. I cannot remember what exactly made me start reading. I am just glad that I did so! My books are my motivator/helping hand cos it never fail to calm me down and make me think in the correct direction.

"Think of what YOU can do and not what others should have done."

I came across this and it changes the selfish thoughts that I have in me. I often focus on what other should have done and never once think of what I did or even what can I do to make situations better. I want others to go with what I want them to do or even to be and if they don't go along with me, I would judge them.

A lot of phrases caught my attention, and I'm doing my best to digest every single one. I know there is still a very long way to be that almost flawless person I wanna be.. But as for now, improvement it what I'm looking for in my life, in every aspect of it.

Oh by the way, it's school reopen tomorrow for SP! Do miss the zombie first day of school cos I usually won't have any sleep the night before! Haha I won't say that I miss my 03 as much as before already cos it is time to move on right? :) As long as I know that everyone is doing fine, I'm happy for them. We will meet again on the 26th of May!

Yueming asked me a question today. She asked if I will help her if she needs my help. Ask yourself that exact question and you have my answer. Without a doubt, our answers would be the same.

She's definitely the only person I confide in. Got no idea why too. She gave me a very comfortable feeling to sharing everything with, even my deepest secrets. Haha can't imagine one day she turn her back on me. Hmm that will never happen anyway! :)

It's 12.25am now, got to wake up early tomorrow and rush a project.

Till then with billions of love!

Good night!

Happy Birthday!

2011-04-11T23:31:00.001+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday to my dearest classmate of mine! It's my greatest pleasure knowing you! You've been with me for almost 3 years, the closest buddy in class the past 1 year.

She's someone who will never fail to make me smile/laugh whenever I'm with her or even think of her. Someone who cares for me, buy me bread when I'm starving, always the one who believed that I have the potential to attain my goal, and most imptly, she's always so motivating! Thank you girl for always being that wonderful angel. You're greatly loved by me :)

You're 21 already, you got to accept it alright :) Age is just numbers anyway! & no worries, I'll always be 2 months ahead of you! Hahaha..

By the way.... I still wanna watch Rio! Hahahhaa, I dont wanna download! :)

Hope you've enjoyed the very simple 21st(a simple hand shake.........) hehe big smiley face!!

Got to sleep already! Goodnight!

You know I love you! :)

Post Created Mar 31, 2011 4:06:10 AM

2011-03-31T04:06:00.001+08:00

Hello people, I am sad and so I blogged. Haven't been sad over education matters for almost 3 years and now it's back! Life tends to be harsher as years goes by yeah? Or maybe, my expectation for myself were higher compared to 3 years ago? Hmm.. Though this may not be the end, but I don't dare to be too hopeful over such matter cos I'm afraid that there are more disappointments waiting for me to overcome them. Haha gosh, now I am so lost... It's like your hopes are all dashed! I'm not only disappointed in myself, I disappointed my parent and that's my major concern!! I shouldn't have given them hope in the first place. Hah now look at what you've done!

I know I got to pull myself up. Haha I told myself almost everything that I could ever think of to console myself, but to no avail? This time I think I am really dejected.

Maybe I should tell myself and everyone who are in the same situation as me now..

"there are many different routes to reach that particular destination, so not to worry if one path is blocked, there are still plenty of unblocked ones."

FIGHTING, & always will!!

May god bless me this time round!

With love.

2011-03-29T23:11:00.004+08:00

You're scolding everyone around you except yourself, so are you that perfect? :) Think about that my friend.

As promised, i'm here to help myself and you kill some time.

SO.. some New Zealand guy just called me again, for the second time. He is like an angel sent from god to open a new path in my life. I am currently standing in the middle of a cross road & i am waiting for either local university to give me a chance to further my studies with them. It's anytime soon i guess? To be frank, i don't have much faith getting into any of them. Haha i am actually fine with it cos' i've already talked to my parent about furthering my studies overseas. Where? Would definitely prefer UK! :) For the time being we shall see how things go? Hopefully, good.

Gonna start work on Monday, won't say that i am excited for it but i'll get myself to be. Haha in the past, i always thought that it's actually okay if a person have had no interest in what their doing. It's not that case now!

"You've got to be before you can do and do before you can have"

I am thankful to people around me. Y'know why? Cos' they taught me way too much! Their actions and words set me thinking. Haha & it's really better to keep your comments to yourself. We all have our own mindset/stand, so i don't see a point arguing over who is right and who's not. Because as long as we think that we are right, we don't need others to agree with you? Those who understands will accept, and for those who don't, make do with what you please. (:

(Btw, i am not pointing my fingers at anyone now, it's just what i feel.)

Few day back, i thought about what i'm gonna do in future and how long it will take me to reach a position where i feel that i am about to succeed. At the age of 35, i might be able to do so.. That is provided that i am determined enough to face all the challenges in front of me and seize all opportunities given to me. However, i have to find my purpose behind all these! Cos' to think of it, i wanna be successful because i want to? What happens after succeeding? Be even more successful? Haha than there won't be much meaning to my life?

Still a very long way to go. But we can't rush all these. Take a step at a time for now :)

Gonna meet Sebas the best on Friday? (Hopefully!!) Miss that wee tat!

I don't have anything else to share already!

Till then, i will miss all of you guys here!

Good night :)

2011-03-29T04:08:00.002+08:00

Her silence somehow became a strength which pushes me to move forward.

Love this joy of mine!

I'll blog more tomorrow! Lotsa stuff to update you people! Am currently living a life filled with motivation! (Y)

Good night!

crazeeee!

2011-03-19T05:47:00.001+08:00

The Apple product craze! Haha soon, apple will dominate all the other brands. I'm pretty sure about it cos' I'm falling in love w apple products.

Spending money like water nowadays! Felt guilty to my burnt wallet! Got myself a mac book pro(hope i wasnt cheated esp the apple care protection!! So frustrating man!!!) Anyway, was pretty satisfied and amazed by it. Worth spending? I think/hope so! However i got to admit that apple products are really costly!!! (I didn't know apple was so smart till I got fooled by it Hahahaha)

Hmm... Gotta start earning before spending.

April's around the corner. 2 more weeks to chill before I start my 9 to 6 working life. Having mix feelings for that, don't know if I'm able to cope and waking up early has always been an issue to me! Ima log you see.... Well, just gotta try and keep trying till I'm perfect! :)

Haha it's like 5.30 in the morning now and I'm still here expressing myself. Haha life have been great recently. Carefree to the ultimate, totally got nothing to do except to eat, eat and still eat!! Obviously my weight is increasing and I am kinda worried...... (but I continue to munch at everything much-able. Heh) At the end of the day, we just got to enjoy ourselves to the fullest!! :)

I've learn pretty much during this few weeks. Although there were still times where I went off track but I managed to bring myself back or people have been nice enough to give in to me. :) Much appreciated!

I googled and found some great inspirational books! Gonna settle a day with joy to go get them. We won't have much time to meet anymore after March. I've got to work and she got internship too but I believe that we are both gonna do great! :) anyway, get my books first.....

Got to sleep already! Got chalet later and I don't think I will wake up early just for that.

Good morn everyone! :)

2011-03-16T19:13:00.003+08:00

Okay.. I got to admit that i am bored & i feel like killing myself....

(Just Kidding.....)

Last week, @ around 8pm was one of the best days of my life. We were enjoying ourselves to the fullest, bumping each other in our bumper car! I think that was our happiest and most united moments in Genting. Haha i do hope for another trip with them, i really really reallyyyyyy miss those pretty pretty moments we had.

However, i don't miss school la...

Random thoughts caught me last night. Thoughts on family, friends, future, mistakes and i cannot remember what else, but i am sure there are more. Oh ya and about walls.......... Haha i know it's lame to think about walls, but i was on this topic for pretty long. Sometimes you just need some weird thinking to get yourself out of boredom.

Another random thought! If i have the money, i'm so gonna open a casino. Money grow money :) But i think it's sinful. (sian...)

Being rich is a must! But how to be rich with language like this? The only frustrating thing that concern me! Anyway there is a perfect solution for this, it's only whether i am determined enough to attempt it.

I remember telling yueming that i am trying to improve my language by reading! & you know what is her reply? "You start now no use one, must start when you're young..." <--- Demoralizing lady! Haha you need more of such friend to make your life more challenging!

Oh god. My eyes are closing while typing all these! (Okay miss peh, i know my eyes are never open to you! hahahaha)

Weekend come quick!!!!! Then it's chaletttttttt time :)))))! After that 3 days of serious learning, then off to genting again!

Haha no time meet joy already! weeeeeee

Bye bye!

A change?

2011-03-15T03:05:00.002+08:00

I was browsing through yahoo news, saw the pictures of how the quake and tsunami destroyed Japan, my heart sank. Look at all those crushed buildings in the picture i posted, it's all their hard work, all the japanese effort! I ever thought of designing an anti-earthquake building as my career, but it's just so tough and maybe impossible to design one. We did models for earthquake competition and we all should know how stupid it was! My group got the 3rd prize for our design and the biggest joke was.... we don't even know what the hell are we designing!!!! What we did was merely glueing sticks together and burning our hands!!

Maybe this is where persistent comes in? You build, mother nature destroy and you build again? Or maybe all these are caused by us? You know i don't wish the prediction for 2012 is true, i want to be with people i love and i wanna build my future with my own hands!

If i don't pursue Civil, what else can i do? What are my alternatives? To be frank, i never thought of any cos' the steps up to my final destination is civil. Hmmmmmm so the more i shouldn't feel demoralize by what happened and listen to what yueming say.

"FIGHTING!!!!!!"

Beginning.

2011-03-13T01:21:00.002+08:00

A beginning marks an end to something.

Am glad that everything ended well. I am still trying to accept that it's really the end for poly and i won't be able to see them as often as i want to. When i am down, it's always them who put smiles on my faces. I won't be sad whenever i am with them. How lovely isn't it? Now, everyone has their own plans, moving on with their own life. I wish you guys all the best in everything you do! Never give up, keep trying okay! :) I foresee great future in all of ya!

Just got back yesterday from my grad trip with 03! (When i typed this, ky uploaded photos in fb!) Saw the photos, miss them even more! O.M.Goshhhh...... How time flies!!! I think i will miss KY most, like already missing her............ Cos' we spent 4 days tgt and she takes care of me :) Because she still thinks that i am some pampered child, so she pampered me as well. How sweet! haha BTW... We are not acquaintances, we are very very good friends! You should get this clear in your head now cos to me you are an angel friend!

Back to topic, the trip was awesomely awesome(hahhaa) Though i din do much shopping and i lost almost all my cash, i am still very happy! My first trip out with friends, had a great and memorable one. Thankful to the guys who are always there protecting us and entertaining us. They make you feel safe when you're out y'know! haha

Things are starting to get back on track for me, i can finally start working hard towards my dream again! :)

I am so glad for everything that is happening to me!

Heh!

2011-03-04T00:43:00.002+08:00

Oh it's Friday already? Time just past so fast when you're not studying! Haha that is why studying has always been sucha drag. Did the best i could for exams or for the last semester, but i didn't do what i told myself to, so yeah.. I'm still very far away from being that person i wanted to be.

Planned quite some stuff to do this holiday, thought of getting my boating license too! Haha i don't know if i can adapt to a 9 to 5 job in April. Anyway, no matter what, i'll make sure i'm up to it!

"To taste the sweet, I first got to face the pain."

As long as we are determine to do something, one day the impossible will be possible. We shouldn't wait for miracles to happen, we should make miracles happen.

I think i lack of determination in the things i'm doing.. Being determine is not being stubborn, it's having your own point of view and stand.

People learn and grow, some takes a longer time.

Oh i am feeling so tired even though i slept 15 hours today! It's never too good to have such habits, people should really learn from their grandparents, sleep early and wake up early! Haha, i wonder how long it will take me to take up such good habits. Oh well..

Imma sleep soon cos' i have to get up early tomorrow to work. I'm not earning much now, but at least i'm earning something :)

Haha btw i caught Charlie St. Cloud just now & it was a great movie! I'll go for a movie marathon so soon! hehe :)

Oh yeah, by the way, i do miss my joy quite a lot! Saturday it will be :)

Im gonna sleep now,

Goooooooooood Niiiiighhhht! :)

reality hits real hard on me.

2011-02-28T01:56:00.001+08:00

I still cannot believe that things changed. Whenever I think of this I'll feel very unhappy, I feel that it's unfair, seems like god is playing tricks on me. I just can't accept this huge task god given me. How am I gonna let go the most impt person in my life now? How long will this take and if that's even possible?

So much thoughts in my head recently, so much to worry.

Felt the pain whenever I thought of how happy we were in the past. All the laughter we shared which can no longer be found now is the toughest thing to bring myself to accept. I'll soon lock myself up to think about what should be done to bring myself out of this mess.

I didn't know life could be so scary. I took everything for granted. The one thing I'll remember for life, " if someone loses faith you in, it's like a death sentence, it can never be the same even if you cry yourself to sleep every night. "

If you love someone, cherish them.

It doesn't mean that if someone scold you, they stopped loving you. You got to understand the reason behind.

We should have just left..

Past?

2011-02-25T02:45:00.001+08:00

I hate to admit this but I got to say that I really miss the past. Not always, just sometimes.. Haha. I miss the times when I'm still in my own world, free from this stress world. Playing was the only thing back then! Only till now that I realize this! I am definitely a much better person now! Heh. OH den I don't think I miss the past anymore!! I wanted to past back is because I wanna salvage Yueming and I, I wanna do everything I can to be more firm w my decisions and understand her better! Oh well, it's over :) All I'm left to do now is not to make the same mistakes again and bring faith home.

Anyway, its always the past that make the present you stronger/smarter/better. (: SP is the one place I didn't regret going. I choose SP over Loyang, that's for sure. Cos SP gave me a lot of things money can't buy, the love, care, knowledge and skills SP given me is priceless! It's where I found good friends, friendly lecturers and of cos, my goal in life. You won't know how thankful I am to god for everything he gave me these past 3 years.

Now it's almost time to meet new friends and challenges. I'm not good in making new friends but I never fail to have good friends. Haha contradicting right? Friendship is way too magical to predict. Those who are meant to stay in your heart will always remain and got those who are meant to just be an acquaintance to you will be acquaintance for life. Haha I learn this in a pretty hard way, I got that and I will do my best to love everyone around me! :)

I was to suppose to sleep by this time but I chose to write something here. I can sense that people are getting bored of reading the same old stuff over and over again. Hehe I enjoy saying all these, idk why but I just love it!!! You know something? Appreciation is one of the most impt thing in life that you have to learn to do. Everyone hopes to gain appreciation, especially when hard work is in it. So, if you appreciate someone, just tell them!! You will definitely make someone's day! :) TRY IT!

I want to be ALMOST flawless! Hahaha! Almost flawless is equals to almost perfect right? (Y) uhhh... I like! :)

Wan an/goodnight!

Success.

2011-02-22T01:09:00.002+08:00

As long as we succeed, it doesn't matter how many times we failed. It's what happen at the end of the day that matters most.

Two more major papers to go before my poly life end! I got to admit that i want it to end as quick as possible! The stress days are more or less over, cos i'm done with geotech!! STILL, financial management is the toughest paper i ever done in my 3 years in SP! Screw the paper, screw myself more. :) But oh well.. i am prepared for the worst already.

Never, never, neverrrrr be overconfident in anything you do! Even if you have 100% confidence in it, drop it to just 50%! You can be confident, but not overconfident, cos it can KILL YOU!

I'm gonna spend my whole day tomorrow mugging for the leftover papers!

Gonna step into a new phase of life soon, wonder if i'm ready for the change.. I got to train myself to be more persistent/determine/discipline. So many books i need to read to improve myself. I believe i can do it!! Got to start my self talk sessions soon. Hahaha i am not being crazy, or indeed i am crazy, crazy over wanting to be the world's most successful woman! (or at least, someone that i can look up to.)

"If they can do it, I can do it better." Always tell that to yourself.

Erica Peh is the sweetest girl i've ever known! It is my greatest pleasure and honor knowing you. It's not the end yet miss peh, we still have many many years to go! At the age of 35, we will sit down together and tell each other how successful we are. The only difference would be, it no longer some crappy dream talks but reality talks! :) We sure can do it as long as we do not give up! You know i'll always be there for you and i know you'll be there for me too. There's nothing much to worry about now cos we've got ourselves a supporter/motivator! :)

It is almost 2 in the morning so i think i better turn in. Tomorrow's gonna be a brand new day. Gonna mug my heart out! :)

Goodnight!

2011-02-13T11:30:00.003+08:00

Fucking perfect - Pink

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me...

No one is perfect unless you love them. If you really love someone, all their shortcomings won't matter. You will forgive them without any reason.

Currently under huge pressure. Sometimes climbing up the steps can be difficult. I won't expect life to be smooth sailing, I just hope for the best. I'm glad that my parent are supportive. Was surprised that mom actually told me to not pressure myself so much after I told her that I don't stand a high chance for local universities. I'm glad she understand my situation now. Getting a GPA of 4 is no big deal, seriously, it's just a small piece of cake if you didn't do well for the rest!

You walked away from me just like that. Isn't this matter like every other problems we had in the past?! When you tell someone something, allow people time to reflect/think and change? I know you never thought of coming back, may be i should too.

I realized that i have quite a lot of time to do my stuff now! Term test tomorrow and i'm here blogging, simply because i done what i should have. Can't wait to end exams! :) Need to search for oversea uni informations AGAIN.. A new environment for 2/3 years would definitely be good for now? :)

1st MARCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

TAYLOR TAYLOR!

2011-02-10T00:45:00.004+08:00

DOPE!

Hi people! Taylor's concert was an AWESOME one! Though the concert lasted only 1.5hr, it was still great! :) For at least she talks quite a bit and most imptly, she respected the crowd by walking down the stage! Holy mama!

Hahaha my brother say she sang horribly HAHAHAHAHA! Seriously. who. care. right? :) Seeing her alone is a pleasure to my eyes HEHE

The crowd was INDEED CRAZY! Was standing for the whole show! Best concert so far :)!

Now it's back to reality! Tomorrow is gonna be a crazy day! FINANCIAL HOW SIA?! )X CSW interview on Friday, got no confidence at all for it cos' i don't have time to practice!! Moreover, i also don't need to go for interview! HEHEHEHE Gonna take it as a challenge! You sure can do it Jolynn! :)

Day 2. If it was a movie, you'd be here by now.

2011-02-08T01:05:00.004+08:00

Remember all the promises you made Jolynn? You broke them and now you face the consequences.

When I say I'll change, I definitely will.

You go and live a happier life, I really hope you do.

I'll miss you.

I deactivated my twitter account, for this is one of the way to shut myself up and move on.

Goodbye.

2011-02-07T02:43:00.001+08:00

I'm 21.

Am still wondering if it's a good thing or a bad one. The challenges ahead are definitely pilling up! Currently under lots of stress, worrying so much for my future. Am graduating in less then a month time and here comes a new phrase of life.

For the past 21 years of my life, I met great people. Ya, people do come and go, it's all out of our control. I realized pretty much yesterday.. My classmates touched my heart. Haha I really did not expect to meet so many lovely people in my life. They are just so simple yet extraordinary. It's just a pity that we only realize it after so long. To be honest, I'll definitely miss you guys!

The first that touches my heart and still remind is none other than Yueming. The journey of our friendship is always under adverse weathers, it can never be smooth for even a month. I don't know if it's a wrong thing for us to get so close.. I feel that you did a lot for me that I wasn't aware and did not show any appreciation to it. I totally understand why you preferred others than me. I apologize for being a person who doesn't even know what she wants. If anything happens in future, I'm the one to be blame. Miss feng, I never regret knowing you. You become more and more impt as time goes by. Me heart you very very much la! (:

Okay, I should stop being some mushy secondary school kid! Anyway ya actually I am quite excited to know how will I be like in future :) for at least I have an objective, dream and a goal in life! I'm pretty hopeful for my future! The only thing left is to be as hopeful towards my relation with people most dearest to me! I always believe that nothing is impossible, all we need is to keep trying and never give up, for if it takes a lifetime to succeed!

The key point is, everyone make mistakes, learn from it and never allow yourself to make the same mistakes again.

Time to get back on track miss ho! Time wait for no man, so do opportunity!

Happy birthday Jolynn Ho Hui, you're 21, stop being so petty, childish, proud, noisy and I don't know what else.....

Thank you so much to those who attended my party yesterday! Your presence and presents and greatly appreciated! You guys are so loved by me :)!

Goodnight.

2011-01-29T01:49:00.001+08:00

It's been so long since I wrote on this small space of mine! I'm lying on my bed now blogging w my phone. (: Lots of thoughts in my mind now. Felt pretty glad that things are going well and it will continue to be cos I believe that I will be!

Past few weeks were spent with classmates either working on our assignments or having fun! Haha they never fail to touch my heart and make me smile! I will certainly miss everyone of you! No words can describe how much I appreciate all of your existence for 3 years! Oh my gosh, can't bear to bid goodbye........ But, life goes on. :)

I finally how does it feel to be growing separately without growing apart. Joy has been really busy with her school work, we don't have much time to even talk for 10 mins! But ironically, things got better? Hahaha whatever it is, I'm just gonna wait and see what she got for me for my birthday! Hehe I prefer the birthday card :)!

A few more assignments left to be completed before I focus on mugging! Cny is around the corner, if possible I'll try to complete as much stuff as possible and welcome cny with a peace of mind! :)

I'm gonna be 21. Life's definitely gonna get more challenging as our age increases, am all ready for it! :) So ya, bring whatever on, I will never give up!

Good night!

2011-01-10T23:06:00.002+08:00

There's an end to everything? Be it good or bad.

Why won't we just treasure every single thing we have? Why are we all being so selfish who only saw their own pains and neglect others?

If we could be just that alittle more appreciative and thankful to simple things others are doing for us, thing would be better?

Everyone loves accompany don't they? Do you love someone because you love them or because you need an accompany? We really should just get this simple fact right!

To me, i find human relation so fragile. I think being from friends to strangers is as simple and quick as from strangers to friends.

Haha I feel that i am experiencing some worst case scenario. If i ever master whatever i'm going through now, i would be god of my own emotions?

A little too much to handle, but i know i'll be all great at the end of the day.

Man... There's still geotech to draw! ); Leave it all for tomorrow, am so tired after the whole day of raining! Haha

Good night whoever, whatever.

2011-01-04T23:01:00.003+08:00

I find poly life irritating, but yet i'm enjoying myself to the fullest during poly time. Ironic it is.

My classmates are all angels, i think they really are. I'm glad to have such classmates! Haha really wonder what would it be like when everyone go missing after graduation. I think my life would be less colourful. (OH, which means you guys are the colours in my life?!) Why must there be goodbyes? & why humans won't cherish the "hellos"?

Got to skip lessons this week due to spinnovex, which is more impt, entertaining guests or entertaining our grades? I would definitely go for grades.

I enjoy the satisfaction in class when you're able to complete a task given to you and answering all the tutorial questions.

You will get more productive when you stop complaining about whatever being thrown at you. It's a gift from god to make you a better person.

It's really easy to dream, to make it come thru is another story. Actually i'm fine with not hitting my final objective in life, all i want is to see improvements in myself as time goes by. With that, i'm satisfied.

Okay, my eyes are closing..

I don't think i will blog often already, cos' there nothing for me to write! It would all be about my angels i guess? hahaha

Till then!

2010-12-31T02:09:00.002+08:00

Enough of being emotional! It's new years eve! in less then 24 hours it's 2011!!!! Like WOAH.. how time flies?! I'm gonna be 21, i'm gonna be TWENTY ONE!!!! :D Now am finally an almostttt adult & i should be more considerate and stop hopping that dad would get me a car! Hehe i will TRY not to think about it la~ It's tough, but not impossible :)

SO what are my new year resolutions????

NOTHING :)! I never liked to have new year resolutions, i find it lame! Hahaha no la, cos' i read a book & it stated that resolutions are more like confessions. Therefore, i better not have any! Hahaha

We just do things that need to be done first, then do the things we want to do. If you realise, i stopped complaining about things that happen around me cos' i believe that everything happens for a reason. God will tell you if he feels that it the right time to do so? If not, just wait.

Actually i do have a birthday wish & if anyone could fulfil that for me i will love that person for life! I wanna meet Zig Ziglar!(actually, any famous motivator will do!) He is an awesome motivator that changes my life with his piece! Haha he wins over jeanette aw or whoever my idols are! He is someone who can change people's life and those around them. So, is my birthday wish too much? haha

I would certainly miss 2010 the most cos' lots of meaningful stuff happened in my life. In face, i love 2010 :) Thank you, you are a great year! Hahaha

Gonna partyyyyyyyy tomorrow with family, relatives and grandparent! OH and some filming tomorrow too!

I got no idea why! But i am really starting to love every single human being in my life! Guess i've learnt how to appreciate and treasure? Or may be, be contented?

I will welcome 2011 with an open arms & heart! I know i'm so gonna love every single moment! :)

Good night! (L)

One is more den enough, for me.

2010-12-31T01:48:00.004+08:00

I think i am the most indecisive human in this whole entire world. (That's because i am really really confuse!!!!!!!)

Thanks to my stupidity, i hurt my best friend. Who in this world would actually do such a thing right? Haha.. ya i did it and i am not proud of it. I'm typing it here cos i don't know apologize in person. Not that i am some coward, i just want her to trust me! When i'm done sorting out my mind/thoughts, i'll get back to you.

Go listen to Umbrella by Mandy Moore. That is what i've been wanting to express to you!(make sure you do ah! It's only when you listen, you will know what i'm saying!)

It's a great song, for a great you!

Thanks for everything.

Like i always say, you're my BEST friend leh!!

With lotsa loveeeeee, don't be sad, i'm sorry! ;)

I really do think that i need a super long time to be just a little more mature! This sucks!

2010-12-28T23:47:00.002+08:00

The sun will shine after the end of a stormy day? & what next? The storm will come again and the sun will stop shinning. That happens all the time, thought that i'll get use to it but it turns out otherwise.

It has been a struggle all these while, hard to accept, hard to part. It all seem great at the surface but inside its pretty bad.

I always finds it a pity, i wish we need not need two hands to clap. Tried so hard to change, but to no avail. It's sad to hear, to see, to learn that everything is going down yet again after so much effort put in. My heart sinks every time this happen.

To look at the bright side may be a solution, but a short termed one i would say.

I always believe that we can handle all kinds of rubbish thrown to us, i still do now. However, we should just try putting each other aside and just grow separately till we feel that we're ready again to face all obstacles.

2011 would definitely be a great year for me, i know it will cos' i'm ready for it! New year, new life, new friends, new challenges and opportunity. Who knows, i might be a billionaire in 2011? Nothing is impossible if we believe.

Y'know hard work really pays off? You don't have to be afraid if you're willing to sacrifice your time and just work at the right thing at the right point of time. Do the urgent thing first den the impt ones. There are no shortcuts in life, you gotta complete step 1 in order for you to accomplish step 2.

Now i'm all motivated again to live a better life. I got no idea why too! It made me feel better, it made me hopeful! Now ima happy girl all over again. Heh :)

Need to oil my brain soon, it getting rusty... School's starting again in less than a week time! Oh, by the way, my results were better than expected.

Why didn't NUS or NTU send me a letter?! Hmmm...

I guess i better turn in soon.

Good night!

2010-12-27T00:19:00.002+08:00

I randomly took this with my phone and it turned out to be awesomely beautiful!! I won't mind living there forever(without cold rash!).

You won't be able to find a dustbin in Japan i tell you! I walk like almost a km and i don't see any dustbin around me!! & surprisingly, none threw rubbish on the ground! Japan is a really clean country! Their public toilets are like... WOAH SO CLEANNNNNNNNNNNNN!!! (Y) That is one reason why i like japan! for those who knows me well, i always go for clean toilets first!

HAHAHAHA i just saw a super hilarious photo of myself!! OH GOSH!! Couldn't describe it but it looks HORRIBLE! Hahaha can't imagine me living with those "moles" on my face!

Hehe i met up with joy today to exchange Christmas gift! I love the gift(okay, the thought) a lot, i love i love it i love it!! :D Others don't have to know the process, we should just keep it a secret! Joy, you're indeed the greatest friend i ever met! 2011 is coming & we're gonna have a great one together! :) Hehe thanks for the santa card (x!

I won't upload pictures here that much already! Go to fb to view them if you guys are interested!

School tomorrow at 10am! I miss my classmates! :)

Nights!

2010-12-26T02:59:00.000+08:00

Hello it's one day after Christmas. I admit that I had a great Christmas eve and Christmas and I am thankful to those that made it special.

Time is passing by so quickly and I feel that it's time to get serious. I am going to get back to my reading and improving. Enough of playing, enough of being childish. I no longer want to feel stupid to regret something I did, no more impulse act!

I just can't stand it when humans just speak without using their brain? That will only irritate people around them? Keeping your mouth shut may be a better choice. So just watch what you say. (I'm not pointing at anyone, im just telling what I feel and things that I've encountered and I don't like it.)

Life is indeed tough and torturous! However, it goes on whether are you happy w it or not.

Oh and to the people that are not appreciative, I truly believe in karma. You just watch and see!

Nights.

Happy 18th, joy

2010-12-15T01:16:00.002+08:00

Hello 18th birthday in 8 days time joy!

I typed this w/o you knowing, so i hope you would at least feel that slightest joy when you see this?

Such a pity that i have to celebrate a belated one for you this year! But i know to you it doesn't matter if it's early or belated, as long i have the heart to celebrate with you! No worries for that cos i will always have one :)

I don't know what to type here for you, cos' i've got so much to tell. & i know the more i wanna say, the more i should just keep quiet cos' i would be best for both like this.

You are a great friend, a friend that is enough for me to be contented even if there's only one. You are that friend that went through so much with me for 4 years, tolerate billions of my nonsense, always caring but won't make it obvious & loving me in your own special way.

I appreciate you and i thank god for your existence in my life. No matter how tough life gets on you, i'm always there to pick you up and walk with you.

"True friends are people who would find excuses to see a friend, and not take a friend as an excuse to do something they wanted. They are people who will only obstruct your path when you’re walking on the wrong path."

I think i will miss you.

All the best for your exams, good bye joy. (L)

Happy 20th, Sebas!

2010-12-14T02:37:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Mr Chng Wee Tat! ((((:

Hope you enjoyed today! Special thanks to Jingxuan for planning, i know it's tough and therefore you deserve a pat on your back! Am so sorry for not being able to post any pictures taken today as my brother is sleeping and the USB cable is not in my room! :)

Thank you for always being that one best classmate! I greatly appreciate your holy existence in my life. Even though it's just a friendship less than 3 years, i would still treasure! You're the best classmate anyone could have and i am very serious about saying this. Best friend, best person to confine to in class, best FYP mate, best "sister"and many more..! You're just the best cos' you are SEBAS! :)

Haha. It's always when the bond gets so strong, we have to bid goodbye. Hate to see this but it's inevitable. Therefore, we'll all bid goodbye with our greatest blessings to each other.

Thank you again for being my friend, i never regretted knowing you! May god bless you in everything you do!

With love,

Jolynn

2010-12-12T02:52:00.002+08:00

Not till today that i realized that i actually do have passion in what i am studying now! Looking at how awesome people made impossible stuffs possible allows me to see interest in construction industry. Who could have ever thought that a building could be constructed within 24 hours?!!!?!! It made me realize how precious time is, that ever single second COUNTS! I was totally amazed by how incredible it was when my dad told me about it!

I still find it incredibly crazy to be able to do that! It takes my fyp group mates almost half a day to complete a few concrete cubes!!!!! & it took them only 24 hours to complete a building. Oh my holy mama, how awesome are those China people!!

(Y)

2010-12-09T23:05:00.006+08:00

Year 3, semester 2, term 1 DONE!

2 weeks of mugging madness completed. I prefer studying one week before and am glad i chose to do that else i will sure suffer this week! I studied, enjoyed my stay in Hotel Micheal Resort World, slept well, watch whatever tv program i wanna watch, meet whoever i wanna meet, eat whatever i feel like eating, life isn't that horrible after all! Well spent!! :))))))

Though I am done with term test, there are still 7 assignments/projects for me to complete. That's life uh, never ending pressure! Btw, our brains are meant to work for useful and knowledgeable stuffs. Therefore. Just Do It!

SO... I had a great dinner with @yueeming. Thanks for the treat, xin ku ni le, earn 42 bucks and treat me $60 dinner! Hahaha i earned $800/5 leh :D! All on me on 24th December :)! Why are you getting sweeter and sweeter? Hahaha I am totally lovin' it! :))))) & she told me about her overseas internship, was so engrossed till we missed our stop! Because she said, "to Africa for 7 months!!!!" Go wrong time ah, world cup just ended! GO SHANGHAI! (Y)

Am gonna rest early tonight! Not sure what am i doing tomorrow...... I shall try completing the 2 experiments and the mini project for wastewater. SOUNDS GREAT!Have to complete it before leaving singapore, else i won't have a peaceful mind for the trip and i won't have the mood to "snatch" Burberry stuffs for my friends and their mom! Hahaha. Must make everyone happy and satisfied! :D

I WILL WATCH SOCIAL NETWORK TOMORROWWWWW!

Till then,

goodnight people! :)

2010-12-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

Life has been all about studying. Glad that things went pretty smoothly! (:

It seems to me that jojo peh is the closest person to me cos' we are spending so much time with each other! I saw her doing her best yesterday figuring out answers for wastewater! Not forgetting Sebas, he was producing "earthquakes" and noises like... I cannot remember what was he mumbling to himself, but its some words close to vulgarities in hokkien! Anyway, we had a great time yesterday!!

I skipped Cad lesson today hehe & i din regret doing so because i did more stuff than expected. More imptly, i had time to jog! It have been weeks!!!!!!! So glad that i am still able to jog like one month ago. (:

WAS suppose to enjoy my weekend in Sentosa resort(idk what's the hotel name)! Yup WAS -.-

I started mugging one week before is because i wanted to relax during my weekend, but it was ruined thanks to my cousin's gf! I don't know what is wrong with her, she wants to stay there alone. Sigh, i cannot stand anti-social people.

So, my weekend is ruined just like that. I shall continue exercising my poor brain then. ):

By the way....... I can't wait for the graduation trip with classmates!! Hopefully there won't be spoilers? *cross fingers* I can sense that it's gonna be a GREAT trip :)))))))!

Am gonna give joy a present filled with billions of my love this year! Provided IF i have the time la ~ ):

Holidays so packed with assignments! (kill me)

Good night, it's time for me to smell my smelly pillow and have a good night sleep! :)

2010-11-23T21:05:00.006+08:00

If we recognizes that,

failure is actually an event, not a person.
yesterday ended last night.
it's not where you start, but where you finish that counts.

It is more likely for us to succeed in life.

I got to admit that life is really a tough battle to fight. We have to deal with physical, mental and emotional battles. They are actually opportunities to be a stronger person. I believe that after every set back/failure we experience, we are gaining something priceless on the other hand. We should respond and not react to problems. Negativity kills braincells but positivity multiplies smiles.

Reasons to why a person should stop complaining and start working is actually quite simple, cos' we should stop reacting and start responding!

If you wanna be a happier person, start thinking positively and motivate yourself in any way possible. It's okay to compliment yourself, but compliment yourself in front of yourself and not in front of others.

I always tell myself, i still have one more semester with my classmates and not left with one more semester. Get what i mean? Paint a positive picture in your mind and you will feel much better. Don't let others control your happiness cos' only you yourself can make yourself happy!

Do whatever you think is right cos' it is okay to fall, since falling is an ingredient to success! Whose life doesn't have bruises right? :)

Trust me, it works!

Goodbye great people who are reading this!

2010-11-14T18:42:00.005+08:00

From today onwards i will only blog once a week, will sum up whatever i did that week and type it all down for you guys to read. Sounds like a really great idea right? :)

This week was one of my busiest week! I cannot remember what i did on Monday! Gosh, STM TTM! Tuesday was nicely spent with the 4 guys, went giant to get the frolick's toppings and did surveying @ T1. Next, dinner with Kurnia and Sebas at Swensens! Had a great chat about many things, love sharing sessions with classmates y'know? They are great people with great mindset and dreams!

Wednesday was the entrepreneur event organized by SP. That was the most tiring day of the week! Was glad that our effort made off! Will be getting the earnings tomorrow! The satisfaction was definitely there! Everyone was enjoying their frolick buffet like what ky mentioned! They were all happy humans on that day! :)

Thursday was a day spent with joy, was suppose to catch megamind but we gave it a miss cos' i was having stomachache! Had a great dinner with her and am glad to be able to see her every week! :)

Friday was one memorable day! Went waxing with classmates! Dan got me scared with his "SO PAIN" expression! The pain was bearable! Haha but i got scolded by my mom for waxing! She pissed me off for not supporting me in whatever i said i wanna do! I will not take that seriously anymore cos' am gonna prove her wrong when i succeed!

Saturday was KY's day! Went to her flea, accompanied her as long as we could! Congratulation for the superb business! You deserve it cos' your stuff were DOPE! :D You have a great mom and pretty sisterrrr! Hahaha!

Sunday, which is today.... Spending it at home with family to watch tv! :)

I've got something to share before i end this week's post.

Real optimism is aware of problems but recognizes the solutions, knows about difficulties but believes they can be overcome, sees the negatives but accentuates the positives, is exposed to the worst but expects the best, has reason to complain but chooses to smile.

This quote is really awesome! My favourite amongst all :)!

Till then, with love!

Great People!

2010-11-11T22:46:00.005+08:00

Yesterday's event was pretty well done, at least there's profit. It certainly is tiring to manage your own business, i didn't know being a cashier WAS THAT TIRING! Your brain cannot even stop working for 5 minutes! I don't think i enjoyed the process? Hahaha... However, i enjoyed the experience. It's always so challenging learning new skills! Got to say that the experiences gained were priceless and i wouldn't mind doing it again. (:

A big THANK YOU to Jing Xuan and Kew! If wasn't for you guys, i think we will all panic! You guys were a great help, especially to me. Having you guys as my friend is my lot! Thanks! :) Not forgetting Sebas, Dan, Joon, Han, SuXian, DongChong, WeiSiong & Luanne!

As for my partners, you know you guys were superbly awesome! Great teamwork with NO COMPLAINS AT ALL! (okay, maybe a little ....) Haha but whatever ~ In the end we still appreciated each other like mad. (: Let await for the results, 800 dollars!! $))))))))

Since this post is all about appreciation, how will i ever forget about that princess of mine? :)

I have a superb joy! You're somehow like my pillar now, you should know how much a pillar means to a building! Let's continue to change for the better! I saw improvements already & i am so glad. Lets bake macrons together during holiday! :)

TILL THEN WITH LOVE!

2010-11-09T00:40:00.001+08:00

Was actually sleepy but went into some "talking session" with myself (am not bonkers no worry, I'm perfectly fine!) It's quite fascinating to somewhat talk to yourself about what you learn today about life/human relation/mistakes you've made today and so on.. I kinda enjoy everything that is happening in my life. It really doesn't have to take a lot of time to see things clear, all you have to do is to tell yourself that you're all ready to accept whatever that are given to you and do your best to accomplish it. Once your mind is ready to take up challenges, more opportunities will come to you! I somewhat saw the dramatic change in myself after telling myself that this is what I wanted and if I don't change, I'll freaking stuck at this same old shitty point till I do something to it! I "fucked" myself up like mad in the past and I told myself if ever I'm going to be like how I was previously, I will freaking kill myself! Anyway don't get things wrong, i don't hate the past, I hated how I behave and reacted in the past. Am so glad that such a change occurred before I turn 21. I thank this realistic world a lot, if wasn't for you, I'm still that childish brainless petty unreasonable girl!

Note: I'm blogging with my phone and I'm suppose to sleep! Hahaha today don't have motivational quotes, gave all to Rina Teo this evening already ~

Okay, I just thought of one! :)

So note: don't motivate to work, but work for motivation. For it will certainly last longer! Your mind needs motivation like how your stomach needed food :)

Good night!

Togetherness

2010-11-06T02:24:00.003+08:00

What an awesome day!

I love outings with family, many reasons why! Went to sit sg flyer, act like tourists! Ate superb dinner and walked to marina bay sands, bought that $3 macarons! I just love it, love every single bit of today! :) For sure i am a family girl, 100000000%!

Went to have seafood again. I like their pork floss prawn! & of cos their sharkfin! OH MAN, DROOL! Lucky, i jogged this evening! Heh!

I ate wayyyy tooooo muchhhhh good food these few days! Had starbucks in school like twice a week! I need to satisfy my taste buds! They are just too demanding these days! I pity my wallet~~~~~ Oh well! JUST, ENJOY LAH ~ (:

I bought 2 jackets, like just.. Thanks to yueming, tempt me! But, i know you meant well. You were afraid that i'll feel cold in class right! hahahaha so sweet of you ~~~~~!

I like this picture, idk why but i just like it!

Imagine a billionaire with sucha hair?

Fail, totally!

Sigh~~~

But, look younger :D!

Note: It does not matter where you start, it is where you finish that matters.

Fulfilling week ahead! Entrepreneurship event will occupy my Monday till Wednesday. Thursday's gonna be a drag. Friday will be a joyous day :) Well planned week ahead! Do look forward to it. It doesn't matter if the result din turn out well, it's the experience gained that matters. All the best ky, sak, chang, kurnia & me!

Till then.

2010-11-02T23:37:00.002+08:00

Hi all. Today was a horrible day. I made terrible mistakes, said terrible stuffs to people around me. I wasn't in a bad mood, I swear i wasn't! Got no idea what's wrong, tired? Too occupied by external stresses that others place on me? Idk.

I felt alright after my nap. Woke up, saw a video and realised that the boy who got murdered was a friend. Thought came running through my mind. The feeling wasn't good only to know that he was actually a friend of mine after so many days! Failed, totally! Rest in peace.

I met great friends in Poly, that's one of the best thing that happened in my life after i met joy. Seriously, you guys made me felt blessed.

Friends are not measured by quantity but, quality.

I swear this time i'm gonna treasure you guys like diamonds. Great people!

Time to talk business with jojo peh!

Nights!

Hello Blogger!

2010-11-01T23:14:00.003+08:00

3rd week of school, this is SO fast?! Oh gosh, time's flying like nobody's business! I was slightly more attentive in class this semester den any other semester! Guess my mind is so clear now, advantage of having a dream and a goal! Anyway, time to start keeping that "I wanna be a billionaire" thoughts to myself. It is none of anyone's business! Hahahaha but i am starting to love my life and the people around me, more.

I appreciate whatever god had given me and those around me. I do appreciate those weird/unkind/evil/insincere people too. They let me understand man-kind more. We are all each other's experiment tool! Hahahaha, so, i appreciate them too! :D

Today was an achievement for me. I did a thing i will never do in the past and never expected it to happen. The results were great and am a level higher then yesterday and a step closer being a successful person! If wasn't for someone, such improvement would definitely take a longer time. (:

Don't ever lose hope in someone/something. This is one important lesson to learn, to be successful, you CANNOT lose hope! Another thing, never regret whatever decision you made! Get over and done with it, we live our day hoping for a beautiful future and not those memories from the past. Hello. Its. PAST. TENSE. :)

Define success to yourself. This is the perfect starting point for a better life. Trust me, it is tested & proven! :)

Note: The will to win is nothing without the will to prepare to win.

I love this joy of mine so much! :)

What's behind success? Commitment.

2010-10-27T23:27:00.003+08:00

Without any dreams/goals/destinations/expectations, there wouldn't be a road to success. We got to know how important it is to have a dream. Be all prepared, cos' opportunity will come by anytime. When you're given the opportunity, do grab hold of it tight. Be prepared and you'll never get lost!

Note: Most people who fail in their dream fail not from lack of ability but from lack of commitment.

I am searching for someone to share thoughts with, give me quality suggestions/advices, lend me a listening ear, sincere encouragement.. Its so much preferred over just accompanying me or laugh with me at nonsensical stuffs.

We do not have to share a common dream? We just got to understand more on each other's wants and needs instead of just your own?

I doubt i found such a friend.

Change.

2010-10-26T23:05:00.003+08:00

I wanted to rant but i stopped and think.. Don't see a point ranting :)

But, this time i am really unhappy but it is obviously okay cos' after a run tomorrow, i will be just fine.

I find everything was so wrong since the beginning, it really should end, for good.

Humans are really scary! If only everyone was an angel. IF.

Anyway, that doesn't really matter to me already. I won't let anything in this world affect me like how they used to. If i don't change, den i'll stuck here forever. Have already been here for almost 21 years!

From today onwards, what's past i'll let it pass. I will forgive and forget.

Gonna work real hard to reach my destination. We will never know what we are capable of until we try. As long as the dream's always in your mind, the number of times we fall won't matter cos' only success matters.

I count myself fortunate cos' i've draftzone. You may not know what's draftzone now, but i'll make it known to everyone may be 10 years later?

If there's a will, there will be a way!

Note: I simple adore people who knows how to encourage sincerely. They are really great people!

2010-10-24T00:58:00.002+08:00

Yes. Hello.

Everything is going back on track now even though school's still draining all my energy! I tried to stay as focus as possible in class and i think i didn't fail myself for the first week? Am so glad that soon my friday would be freeeeeeeeee! That was the happiest thing that happened during the first week of school.

Had Rocky's Pizza with joy on Friday! We actually finish up all the pizza and it filled our stomach till we skipped dinner. I got to agree that the pizza was superb and i will go have it soon, like real soon!! :) Met my cuz and he brought us to have ice cream, den to his house for toilet break. He showed joy cute pictures/videos of me!! I didn't know i was THAT cute, like seriously THAT cute! HAHAHA omh, nightmareeee!

Felt guilty for being SO soft spoken(hehe) and causes her to stumble over some uneven concrete path. I said "careful" TWICE!! )x but she only heard "ful" twice. Hahaha she was really unlucky after dropping her precious phone :) It's okay la joy, one for one exchange!

I will feel a bittttt sad if i skip jogging a day. I prefer jogging alone now cos' i can do whatever i like/want! Haha and i made a new friend, she smiled to me today when we jogged past each other. Heh!

By the way, the weather's kind of "siao" recently. Wonder if it is due to the haze, the weather is just ABNORMAL ~ ! & i don't like it!

I've got homework to do!!!!! Have to look through it tomorrow and try attempting it. I must DIST everything!

3 months, give me 3 months!

2 more months to joyous's 18th & less den 4 months to my 21st! GOSH OLDDDDD!

I realised something but i don't wish to share with you guys HAHAHA!

SO, nights! :)

School's boring!

2010-10-19T22:52:00.007+08:00

Hello.

I really don't wanna say this but i have to. I don't really like school now.. I wonder was it because i lack of sleep these 2 days or cos' it was PLAIN boring! (or was it something else? which has been on my mind since ytd?) Anyway, if this continues then i am so dead. Sighs ~

By the way, financial accounting(eh i cannot remember what's that module called!!) interests me the most now and i hope it will continue interesting me! If only Ky's in it too! Den we can talk about serious business.

Steel CAD is madness okay! You know i never liked R.C design? May be i'm not suitable being a civil engineer? I feel that after two days of school, my hopes and dreams are all blurry. I think i know where the problem lies but i just don't want to turn to anyone cos' i don't see a point. They are only interested in their own stuffs.

The previous book i read was damn bloody true about people. Guess we are all as sucky? It takes time, so give them time..

Am i being too serious or is yueming acting like a child? I am disagreeing with whatever she's doing recently! This is quite bad? Nevermind, see you on Friday and i will still eat McDonald with you if you want. You haven send me pictures HOR!

School drains all my energy and time away! Didn't have the time to read or exercise. All i did was, school/sleep/eat. Seems more like a routine now. My adapting level's probably too low?

Oh. so. sad. but. whatever! All these won't stop me from moving, everything will be back to normal next week!

Self motivation overcomes everything :)!

My mom's cooking is improving! (Y) Way to go mom!

Eyelids are getting heavy, turning in soon. I need plenty of sleep for tomorrow's CAD lesson~~~

Goodnight, joy!

2010-10-14T03:06:00.002+08:00

Pleasure

I think i fancy the wrong stuffs? Hahaha I thought girls are suppose to fancy beautiful dresses and lovely heels? Why am i more into comfortable houses, killer red cars and yachts?

I know you will say, "cos' you're not even a girl!"If i'm not a girl then what am i?

If you are doing what you're suppose to or what others are doing then you are SO COMMON! I don't know about what you think & who cares about what you're thinking? Sometimes we have to get this fact right, no one is interested in what your thinking is! So take it to yourself, unless it benefits the other party.

Anywayyyyyyy, it is so common for guys to own all these. SO, if i am able to achieve all these in life, i succeeded!

Action speaks louder than words.

School is starting in 4 days time? Looking forward? Yeah, why not? :) I miss chatting with my classmates!

Life is full of surprises! Lets spread a little joy to everyone around us!

Haha and i wonder who irritates my princess! Poor fellow, she seldom criticize!

I had a great chat with Ky! I love talking to her cos' after every chatting session i will learn something from her! I think that is what friends are for? I am glad to have such a friend!

Time to sleep! Will jog again tomorrow if my body is okay with it! :)

Good night!

101010

2010-10-10T03:09:00.002+08:00

Hello there lovely people :)!

Shall first entertain you guys with pictures. Those were taken last Tuesday. I randomly chose 3 to post, the rest i'll just keep for my own entertainment! Hahaha (:

I remembered joy asking me to find a position where my eyes are of the largest! Tried my best but still, smaller than hers!

SO, today's 10 oct 2010, in another words(numbers) it's 101010! Hmm.. actually.. I don't see anything so special about 101010(other than the book i read a month back, i think that's a much more worthy thing to focus on rather than this you called special day.) Moreover, to me now every day's so meaningful and special with people around me. As long as they are still around than every day is like a gift from god.

AND if you think 101010 is special, what about 111111? 121212? 131313 and so on? Haha i am not trying to spoil any fun, my point here is actually to let you guys know that no matter how special a day or a date is, as time goes by, we will all forget the reason behind all that specialness. Why? Because the earth is rotating and things won't remind as it is for long.

Am currently reading a book, How to win friends and influence people by Dale Carnegie. I must admit that this title sounds a little cunning? I swear you'd be so surprised by how useful this book is to us. (By the way, you guys don't have to agree with me, different people, different preference. )

Timetable was out last week, was a really loose one i must say. Anyway it was as expected, 5 modules left before graduation. At first i find the timetable really stupid because i wanted at least a day off from school. Haha i still find myself so childish, eww!

Oh, the feeling of having constipation sucks to the ultimate okay! Like always getting false hopes. Arghhh~ If it continues, i am going to consult a doctor cos' i feel that it's so disgusting when what goes in can't come out. ):

Am gonna sleep late(as usual) and wake up as early as possible tomorrow. Planned to go for a cycle with family tomorrow. I told my mom that we're going to exercise every Sunday cos' i don't want anyone to die soon! This is no joke OK! I am working towards my goal, a HAPPY billionaire. Happy is the KEY word and not the billionaire. Being happy is being healthy.

Will end it off with a quote, "Start by doing what's necessary, then what's possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible."

Good night and enjoy your 101010! :)

Totally blessed!

2010-10-04T23:51:00.003+08:00

The Result Day?? Haha

Actually, for me and some of you, it was yesterday. Looked at my result slip, was glad and satisfied to have achieved such an unexpected(and i really meant UNexpected!) GPA this semester/cumulative. It doesn't seem to tally when i first saw them, they are like heaven and hell?

Joy encourages me by asking me to look from the positive side and yeah, it took me some time to accept those numbers stated beside the "cumulative:"

Anyway, who would ever thought of me having such an achievement? None. Not even myself.

Yeah i got rewarded for my hard work(i don't think that's my 100% yet though). You guys won't wanna know what my parent gave me/wanting to give me.

It's my mom's purest smile/laughter and dad's "high five" that made me realised that, yes, my hard work did pay off! They have always been my pillar for everything i do in life. Provides me with whatever i need and not forgetting the "wants" too! Haha.

I think I'm crazily blessed! I thank god for them.

Suddenly remembered something, mom's saving now for my backup plan! She has an iron mouth with tofu heart. Hahahaha!

Haha i wanted to include a very adorable picture of someone but i don't think it's appropriate now! May be in the next post or may be not.

Lastly,

JOY I WANT MY BOOK! & thanks a million for getting it for me! (L)

Future?

2010-10-01T02:05:00.004+08:00

I got ZERO things to do! This is one reason why i want school to start asap! I need my brain to work for useful stuffs, i wanna see my classmates and laugh with them non-stop! One more god damn semester and yeah poly life's OVER!

Looked through NTU website just now, thought of taking double degree civil and economics BUT need A level physic! Shall stick with civil engineering will do! It interests me, idk why! However, on the other hand i got worried due to my poor language! If i don't improve, i'm sure i will struggle during my days in Uni. I should have studied harder during Primary school ah! Sigh, read MORE books!

I read through the site, NTU gives students lots of real life experiences and this is what interest me most. What's the point of having ten thousand lectures?! Throw us in the field and let us mess up everything during school days will benefits us more and spoon feeding us till we score 4 for our GPA. Then we'll get a kick to our ass from our bosses!

Everyone learn from their mistakes and i'm sure we will all pick ourselves up from where we fall!

& yeah, what if i can't get into a university?

That is when we need our backup plan!

I haven't found mine YET, so i will continue to think that NTU will want me! HAHAHA

Anyway i do have a backup plan, which is to study overseas. My mom disagree with that so ya if this semester my cumulative less den 3.7, i got to persuade her or i search for another backup plan.

Alamak, very stress! Why am i 20 and not 02?? ):

& who bluff me! NTU admission is next year's Feb, who says its this Oct? Anyway it's still using this sem's GPA, SO ALL THE BEST PEOPLE! Please don't cry together on monday morning okay! (not being sarcastic!!)

On a lighter note, listen to katy perry's teenage dream! I like leh! hahaha

& Yes joy, tintin and lollipoppopssss see your on thursday! :)

I need to find something to watch, like NOW!

Till then,

Good night!

Aiyo, why so sad?

2010-09-30T01:43:00.003+08:00

I feel that i am a really boring person, or maybe i prefer being alone?

Anyway i always wanted something, something that money can't buy, parent can't give, no matter how hard i try, i still won't be able to get it. It's a regret, really is one big big regret in life.

Life goes on, we still have to live a day, be it happy or sad.

Someone made me wonder if understanding a friend is important. I don't think just by being understanding can allow us to understand a friend. Being understanding is just swallowing unhappiness into your own stomach. This isn't the way things should be!

I think the right word to use would be, accepting. Cos' accepting is simply to accept. It is okay not to understand someone deep down but to really accept them for who they really are. We are all human beings and sometimes we don't even understand ourselves, so we cannot expect others to understand us. We are all the same! We cry when we're sad, laugh when we're happy, have to eat to live, wishes to be happy everyday, etc.. So yeah, the magic word is to accept.

I wonder why am i so emotional these days. Not motivated at all. Think i slacked too much during holidays, no stress, no trouble. All these got me so worried for myself, no goals, no dreams.. Just want to sleep my way through my whole life!

Miss Genting so much!!! Wish i could stay there for a month or so and i can declare bankrupt when i return. Haha

Mom confirmed the Japan trip on December 15, time please fly to December soooooon!

Gonna turn in now since there isn't anything or anyone for me to talk to now :(

Good Night!

2010-09-25T01:16:00.003+08:00

Went to some pub at Genting to celebrate sister's 14th birthday last sunday. Played 5/10 with dad & bro, drink beer till i almost puke! I still prefer being together with my family, family girl! Hahaha!

Went into the Casino(nice~~~), lost from the moment i step inside till the last day! HAHAHA! Glad there's superdaddy i must say, was there to turn the situation around :) Straight Flush, x40! (SWEE AH!) Hahaha OK, i know you guy can't get what i'm talking about, next year you'll know!

Talk about today, i met joy for lunch and we had some japanese food. That ~~blur~~ cute joy had to trouble tintin to ring her manager to ask about the set lunch! (OK, i know it's not your fault, is that waiter didn't give you the menu on the set lunch right?Hahaha) I ordered some rice and it sucks OK! It was SO dry! Talked about her results, poorthing :( But, i'm still very happy for you!! Improved so much! (forget about that stupid D!!!) (:

I told her i wanna get case for my phone & happened there's this stall/pushcart having a "Moving out sale" (joy, not closing down sale OK! HAHAHA). Shopped there for i think 30mins? Got our cases :) Contented! :D

Then, blah blah blah blahhhhhhhhhhh, OK home sweet home! HAHAHA!

Hehe tintin gonna buy us strawberry lollipopsssssssssssssssss! (Y)

& joy said i lost weight!?!!???? (HEHE)

I am finally sleeping early tonight! Got to wake up early tomorrow for lunch & change the faulty case i bought for my daddy!

Till then,

Goodnight!

Enjoying Life?

2010-09-24T05:36:00.003+08:00

M daddy's like 5 months pregnant? Or 6?

Please, Its ELDER brother hor!

Haha Look alike??

I am blogging at a very weird morning, almost 6am now & i can't sleep! I slept at 8am last morning. Nope, don't say that i am crazy cos' this is my way of enjoying. I spent 4 straight days at home without stepping out of my gate, not much MSN, twitter or FB. Just me, mom and my television :) It's a sure thing that i've gained weight HAHA! But come on, this is life man.. I'm just too lazy to get in touch with the outside world now, i think i only talked to yueming and i think only she can pull me away from my TV and go have lunch with her! Anyway, i will stop after i get a job. Universal Studio? Hmmm.. I won't mind because i know i would love it there! :) However, see how.. Hahaha!

Treadmill I need you soooon! Like really sooooooon!

OH YA! My phone's lagging for no reason! & i fell in love with Iphone 4(white)! But i will use my current one for 2 years as i'd promised.

Before the genting trip, i was at my top form. Trying really hard to improve myself.. But once i'm back, i got lazy & stopped reading :( Haha.. Guess i had a really wonderful trip this time round, i enjoyed(except on the way back, i almost fought with an uncle!), but to think of it now, i find myself immature, i shouldn't get so worked up because of such person, i should have laughed at the way he is reacting!

I should have been more understanding towards whatever that is happening around me. So much more to learn!

Clear all my thoughts cos' its gonna be a brand new day tomorrow & the day would be filled with joy! :)

Goodnight!

2010-09-16T01:34:00.003+08:00

Another 3 days had passed, meaningful stuffs took place within these short 3 days. Day out with Makassar peeps yesterday! They filled my heart with joy! :)

However, just a few hours with them, i learnt something. It was pretty sad to hear that they only brought $150 and expect to stay here for a week(including shopping). My first reaction was "are you serious winda?! 150 sing for a week in singapore??" She replied me with a smile, telling me that 150 is enough cos' she brought rice or fish to eat.. I know they came to singapore this time round wasn't to shop/play/tour around singapore, but to visit us and see how are we doing. This might be last time we'd be able to see each other. Actually, their main purpose is to see the malays la... Whatever it is, i feel honored to have known all of them. (L)

So, talked a lot with Sak, Dan & Sulin yesterday. Laughed & yeah, gossiped about people(hahaha!) All in all, we enjoyed & thats the most important thing in life, to enjoy ourselves! :)

I blog shopped awhile in the afternoon, it has been awhile since i last did that. Ehh.. Nothing much, saw nice shoes! Wanted to get but it was too big for me? Crossed the page quite unwillingly, but life goes on yea? Hahaha :) Oh, i read my book just now & it told me to laugh at whatever stuffs that are happening in my life! It does make sense, we got to face everything positively, get over and done with it as soon as possible! Life is a joke, so, laugh hard at it.

Will start packing for tomorrow once i'm done with updating this lovely space of mine. I won't say that i am excited for my genting trip tomorrow, okay, later on.. I am just glad to have such understanding parent! My heart giggles whenever i thought of how great they were! Entering the casino isn't my priority this trip, I just want to relax, stop my mind from working too hard, i am gonna give him/her a holiday too! & gambling will kill x100 more brain cells than working on the toughest H.Math question, i swear to god it's hell torturing! Esp, when you're losing HAHAHA!

Oh ya! I MUST eat the porridge in the casino this time round! It's a must, it's a must, it's a must! Damn nice/shiok/heavenly! You really got to try! Cheap & nice, Best ahhh!

It's gonna be a real HOLIDAY for me! Throw all the worries/troubles/thoughts away & just go all out to enjoy every second of it! :)

I'll be back with the purest curve on my face!

I'm gonna help my mom iron all the clothes for the trip now, so see you v soon people! :)

Wassuppppp people, holiday!

2010-09-13T01:37:00.003+08:00

Yeah, having my long awaited break. Glad that the past 2 terms in school were well spent, even the previous holiday. I saw how time fly when we're occupied by projects and assignments. March 2010 i went for my attachment in Makassar, spent 17 unforgeable days there. Benefited from the people there and grew abit after the trip. Ask myself if i missed the trip, my answer would definitely be a 'no' if wasn't for the friends there. If i'd a chance to have another experience there, my only expectation i would give myself is to quit all complains. I know that my greatest flaw is that i complained too much, despite small or big matters. I won't deny the fact that i'm pampered and i love to be pampered! I always told my parent that i will repay them and pamper them like how they pampered me, when i have the ability to do so. However to think of it now, i cannot assure that i'll be successful in future even if i have a mindset of being a billionaire now! Often, things don't go the way we want them to be especially in life. Therefore, i realised that i need a backup plan! Am still in the mist of finding the perfect backup plan for my future, i might consider marrying a rich husband HAHA! Nothing is impossible!!

I've decided to spend this holiday improving myself, of cos' buy reading books! Currently on 10-10-10 & will move on to rules of life soon! I thank ky for introducing awesome books to me & continue to do so! :) Btw, am glad that you thought of what you wanted to be in future! It's never easy to achieve what we want especially when we want something so huge! However, we don't only want to be good people, we want to be great people!

I admit that i was childish, even up till today. Now, i don't see a point in apologizing after a mistake, i should think of ways not to repeat such mistakes! I tend to say hurtful words when i'm angry but i promised myself not to anymore! Yeah, talk is cheap and actions worth a million words.

Haha, i don't know why but i'm quite proud of myself now! It's like i finally decided to clear my mind with positive thoughts. I could have done so long time ago! Thankfully it wasn't too late, i know it isn't!

Quit all the "I or you" & start with "we"! It is better than the sum of individual parts!

It's time to start everything afresh! I believe after the change, things would be better(no is sure will be better) than before! :)

Oh, btw, improving my English is a MUST! Car ): Sigh!

Back to improving, have a good rest people!

Goodnight :)

2010-09-10T03:38:00.002+08:00

Chanced upon Sebas's blog, made me happy :) Its not that you can never replace people whom has already gotten a place in my heart, its because you are already in my heart! Looking at you reflects myself, we're alike in some ways and you know it. Whenever i'm unhappy you will be the first to know? & whenever i'm happy you will feel happy for me. I appreciate it, i appreciate having a genuine friend like you.

I don't want to admit but i have to. It's always them who are willing to spend their time and effort to make me feel happier, even if it's just an inch, they are still willing to. It's all these little little supports from them that pushes all the unhappiness away. They replaces my tears with smiles & laughters.

Blame my heart for being stubborn, which only insisted on having one. Also because of this stubborn heart of mine, i'm suffering almost every single second. Why are you insisting on having someone who will never be there, who will never ever bother if you're smiling or crying?

I am so desperate now to find a solution for all these.

Anyway there's only two options, leave or stay.

My dearest most dearest joy, can you please respond or do something? Do you know i am gonna give you up any minute & i'm totally serious?

Okay, exams are O V E R :) 3 cheers for everyone who gave their best! Don't be discourage especially for H.math! The most precious lesson learnt would be from mistakes! Just don't be discourage, once you are den god also can't help you alreadyyyyyy!

Holiday's finally here, have been waiting for you for so long! Done with the most important phrase in poly already, hopefully my results are good enough for NTU else i'll have to bid goodbye to singapore. Maybe i should apply for scholarship in uni, imagine i got acceptable by london?! Be like Miss chua! (Y) Haha ya, this morning i had a one to one session with her & we communicated in mandarin!! Unexpected, maybe i look like im from china? OH NOS! Joy i don't want! Still, to me she's the perfect role model for me!

Now 4.11 in the morning already! Can't sleep cos' i slept for 6 hours just now HAHAHA

Genting next thursday! This time no casino okay miss ho be a good girl! :D

Thought about getting yacht license this holiday, however don't see a point in getting one now!

Went to look look, see see at sgcarmart. A loner like me, don't need a big car la, 2 seater can already! HAHAHAHHAHA! If you get what i mean! If not than too bad for you!

Must be mature already, shall stop acting like a kiddddd :)

Nights!

2010-09-07T00:30:00.002+08:00

Got unhappy over certain stuffs. I know i should be more understanding, but then come think again, whose being understanding to me? Why must i alter myself to please others?

Friends are suppose to divide griefs and double our happiness. (??????????)

Was unhappy, thought i could borrow your ears but it turn out worst. I really don't think this is what friends are for. Cold like iceberg, the longer the colder it gets?

You won't know how hurtful it can get, nobody will. Fuck it, seriously!

Sorry. I'm just using this small space here of mine to vent.

Couldn't control my feelings, causing me to lose the momentum of mugging. Thank god there isn't any paper tomorrow else i really will choose to flunk it. Tomorrow will be a better day.

Good BYE!

2010-09-05T00:22:00.002+08:00

HIGHER MATH. HIGHER MATH. HIGHER MATH.

GEOTECH. GEOTECH. GEOTECH.

C&S. C&S. C&S.

HOLIDAY. HOLIDAY. HOLIDAY.

BANGKOK! BANGKOK! BANGKOK!

WASSUP DUDE! HAHAHHA

Joyoussss!

2010-09-03T01:10:00.004+08:00

Someone's gna turn 18, SOON... (;

I just can't deny that swensens earls is the best place to chill! Joy wants to go back there after her exams again with the almighty me! Of cos' i'm happy, cos' someone is gonna treat me, someone is gonna treat me! Joy's working so hard nowadays, for both studies & earning cold hard cashhhhh! I am happy for you cos' you've finally (yes. finally) grown, which certainly makes you more lovable than before. (Y) Don't anyhow spend your hard earn money, must save okay?!!? Else how in the world are you gonna get me my 21st birthday present?! You know, I know can already. Don't need to boast :D!

Haha anyway, I told you about my plans just now, i won't travel around myself cos' in my life, you will always be included. Confirm guarantee plus stamp, chop and thumb print!! Legally binding already, enforceable in court. Haha

I've stopped worrying for you, cos' this time i really felt that you've grown. & i am very happy for you! We both have different dreams and we're working hard for it now, its okay to spend lesser time communicating cos' we communicate through our hearts. :)

Still thinking of my billion dollar dream. HAHAHA!

Goodnights, chiong maths tomorrowwwwww! :)

Let past be past?

2010-09-02T02:00:00.002+08:00

I thought back & saw how much I've grown. Haha I actually enjoyed most when i was back in sec 3! That was when my life changed and my grades dropped like mad! So, we will only enjoy when we put studies aside? Yeah, maybe that was what i thought in the past, but definitely won't be for now. I'm turning 21 in less than 6 months!(Omg i din know that till today......) Have to think of more stuffs before making any decision or even doing things.

I learnt a lot this few years with so many people walking in and out of my life.

I am glad to have known people like Ky, Sebas and Dan! They are the ones who certainly make a difference in my life! Thanks for making me smile, esp esp miss peh. I've only left with 5 months to smile with youuuuuuu! So i will treasure. :) Oh btw, remember the chicken soup ah! Hahahaha!

Aiya, you people won't know how much I love my classmates la.. They are like angels okay! ALL OF THEM! I finally able to say this, cos' this is what my heart says. Exams will end soooooon! Hang on & give your best!

You know my classmates made me see lots of things? But no one is perfect, everyone makes mistakes! So, we should all forgive and forget & enjoy the remaining days we left. Don't be sad, cos' to have a beginning we must have an end to something. We will never know, we might meet again 10 years later sharing our very own stories t one another :) I will remember 23.07.2020! ( KY! )

Anyway i will feel happy as long as everyone around me are blessed and happy. Because joy is the most priceless thing to have!

I'm lucky enough to have mine & i believe i will have it forever, till my hair turns white and dropped all my teeth right? Hahahaha you are so loved!!

Bye! :)

2010-08-27T01:50:00.002+08:00

I should stop saying that i care when i can't even bring the slightest joy into your life.

Am done with FYP!

2010-08-26T02:43:00.002+08:00

Today marks the end of FYP! Glad that its all over now & i can really focus on upcoming tests and exams! Spent almost 6 months working with weefong in samwoh, there are good times and bad times. Good because i feel good when my mates are happily enjoying the breakfast that i bought? Haha & not forgetting the time we spent in that comfy toilet and the superb sofa! Bad when we failed the slump test over and over again! Plus the transport & venue. But no matter what, it's a great experience for me and i appreciate what samwoh has given me. (OH btw, i will never get a chance to see mr good looking anymoreeeee! ): Hahaha!)

I don't wanna talk about any of my presentation. Though it sucks but i still appreciate the experience & i don't really enjoy wearing formal though i look nicer/slimmer/taller. :)

Thanks yuemingggggg for the formal clothes & heels!(L) I won't return you anytime soon cos' i still need it for exhibition. OKAY OMG! MEANS FYP IS NOT OFFICIALLY DONE YET?!?!??!! "KILL ME, SHA WO!" ://////

Samwoh presentation Yesterday!

Weefong, joon, chang, Dc, Sebas, Me, Mr tan & Dc Kelvin (nehh, mr good looking! Young, talented & rich. What more can you expect?!)

Official Presentation today!

My mates! If i get a chance to choose my fyp group all over again, I will still choose the two of them! Really :)

At least we are classified as the "potential A groups"

Future CEO of "JHH company"

CONFIRM PLUS CHOP OKAY!!!

Time for a show & then sleep!

Goooooodnight!

I'll Be There - Maria Carey

2010-08-23T03:42:00.002+08:00

You and I must make a pact

We must bring salvation back

Where there is love I'll be there

I'll reach out my hand to you

I'll have faith in all you do

Just call my name And I'll be there

I'll be there to comfort you

Build my world of dreams around you

I'm so glad that I found you

I'll be there with a love that's strong

I'll be your strength I'll keep holding on

Let me fill your heart with joy and laughter

Togetherness is all I'm after

Whenever you need me I'll be there

I'll be there to protect you

With an unselfish love I'll respect you

Just call my name And I'll be there

I'll be there to comfort you

Build my world of dreams around you

I'm so glad that I found you

I'll be there with a love that's strong

I'll be your strength I'll keep holding on

If you should ever find someone new

I know she'd better be good to you

'Cause if she doesn't I'll be there

I'll be there

Just call my name

I'll be there

Whenever you need me

I'll be there

2010-08-20T01:48:00.003+08:00

Yeah, another week coming to an end, stress is definitely pumping up! Just got to focus & DO MY BEST :)

Met chang and sebas just now at ehub to work on our ppt for tomorrow's trial presentation. I reckon it's gonna be a quick and brief one, cos' its Mr Tan! Hahaha know his working style can already!

I really hope to ace this presentation! I am trying to improve my presentation skill & i hope everything will turn out fine. Fingers crossed!

Yueming grumbles just now for the first time! & i think because of that, you know how many people cares for you right? :) Wait for white cos' it's like 100 times nicer! :)

So enough of wasting time watching YOG, cos' its really time to mug really really hard! Don't wanna regret! KY i will call you very soooooon! :)

I still don't understand, why they don't wanna have extra lesson for PM?! See, now all struggling already.

&& once i think of higher math, i really felt like giving up! This is the worst in my 3 years in poly, i never will have such feelings for math & now? Huge disappointment! The A maths days in sec schools are back! F9 ALL THE WAY! *SIGHS*

Do my best, do my best, do my best!!!!!!!!

Goodnight!